Circus Monster (Luka x Miku)

Am I Stuck In The Past, Or Future?

"Hey! What's your name?"

I pondered, for a few moments what was that kind and friendly tone? My eyes darted across the desolate room, smelling only rusting metal and decay. I once again heard the same light-hearted voice call out to me asking the same thing, but this time followed by a "c-can you hear me?"

I turned my head 90 degrees to the right only for my eyes to land on a another girl, one like me? I couldn't tell. She had seemed way to happy to be one of us but that assumption was completely incorrect as both our eyes had met ear other. I could see the small circuits tweaking and moving around in her blindingly blue-teal irises, the electrical and non-human parts of this girl didn't effect in anyway how she looked. She was in simple words, beautiful.

Before my mechanical brain could properly get put into gear she placed her hand atop of mine and squeezed it slightly, I looked down and then back to her and closed my eyes. Hoping. Wishing. Praying. That my robotic mind would start working, give me something to say but I was left speechless. Completely silent, as if I was ignoring her.

I'd only been here for a few days and already I understood how my life would be, how painful it would be. I had already let my programming understand that I'd never feel any form of what they called emotion. I knew that I'd never meet someone that could change the path I was falling down. I just let fate tangle itself within me and allow me to fall into the abyss of despair. In other words I excepted the pain inflicted on me, even if I was just created to feel pain. I was okay with that.

Until I met her...

"hey I'm sure you can hear me right?" Her smiled stretched all the way across her face almost completely taking up the perfectly rendered complexion. "I know you're new here, I was first to be made... I've uhh been here for a few years now" she looked down as the smile on her face fading letting sadness in-bed itself within her. She increased the tension on my hand she was holding desperately onto. "There were two others before you, but they kind of just stayed together and never really spoke to me. And I never spoke to them," she then looked directly into my eyes as her own started to shimmer brightly. "Please, please can you be my friend...? I've had no one for so long. I really want to get to know you!" She exclaimed.

I looked back down to our now intertwined fingers then looked back to her as she still awaited my answer. I felt something tug at my fake heart and force a liquid like substance to form in my eyes.

"O-of course I will" I replied. I looked deep into the sea of her eyes, they flooded with colour and light, waves of emotions were clashing around in her irises. She perked up more though when I answered her. She then continued to throw herself on top of me and hug me to the point were it was becoming hard for me to breath. But I didn't care, right now was the moment I knew, maybe this can't be too bad with someone else with you.

We sang together, we talked together. We faced everything they threw at us together. Little did I know how many feelings you held for me. There were many instances were you had tried your best to tell me your feelings, but oblivious me, thinking we couldn't love, never even thought about the possibility of them.

After you left, I thought the guilt would be enough just thinking I hurt you so much, Where I left you at the point of breaking, without even trying to help you. The point where you were led to do... unthinkable things. I had recently found out your life before me.