Poetry... I guess

Disappointment

I'd tell you that I'm falling, but you'd take it like a joke.

I'd hold your hand forever, and I'll squeeze it until it's broke. 

I'd fall for you over and over every day....

but I'm too scared that I'd be replaced. 

I could watch you smile for years, and it'd never lose it's charm.

I would hold you as close as possible so I can protect you from harm. 

I'd make infinite sandwiches, and I'd bottle up the scent.

Of course, none of this can happen because I feel like a disappointment. 

The girls you like are pretty, while all I have is smarts.

They all want flowers and chocolate while I want is spare time and sweet tarts. 

Those girls are paper thin, while I'm far far from it. 

I fell like I'm at the bottom of the ocean while you're standing on the summit. 

I'd want to be your everything. I want all of your attention,

but if I won any awards, all I'd get is honorable mention.

Instead of singing harmonies, I'm stuck singing laments

because when I think of love, I feel like a disappointment.

I try to be so happy and to be at least okay.

Except I get more lonely with each and every day.

You're already my best friend, and I feel selfish for wanting more.

I'm looking for something genuine, not a guy to score. 

I know this is a bit depressing- I don't post stuff like this all the time.

I'd be at my happiest if you'd let me call you mine. 

I used to feel so wonderful, but I'm slowly feeling less confident.

Instead of being yours, I'm just a disappointment. 

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I seriously need to quit being so emotional about this stuff, but this dude always has me in my feels. I'm sure he likes someone else, but I can't get over him. I'm sure he doesn't like me at all.... I'm sure I'll get over it eventually.