Falling For You (Armin×Reader)

Unsure Feeling

The day after I had my horrible memory, I started to feel depressed. I couldn't get depressed when I'm trying to save all these people. So I always prayed that God took good care of Lyla and our parents.

I got up early in the morning and did a little morning exercise. After that, it was already time to go train. So everyone one got ready. Once everyone was outside, the training began. I was the best of the best there. I always strived to be the best so that I could protect everyone from dying so they wouldn't have to go through what I went through.

Not to brag, but I was actually a lot better and stronger than Mikasa. That's why most people feared me, and no one ever dared to challenge me to a fight.

Time Skip~

Once training was done, it was lunch time. Everyone rushed to get food, but I just slowly walked and waited for everyone to finish so that I wouldn't get stuck in that mess of people. Considering that I was always the last person to get food, I was also the last person to get the last seat.

Usually I would sit best to Sasha because she always wanted my food, which I gave her because these days I'm too depressed to eat. I have to force myself to forget everything that happened not too long ago, and I always wonder how all these people can smile and laugh. Don't they know that I lost eveyone I ever cared about? I guess not because now it doesn't matter.

Unfortunately today, I had to sit next to the one person I hate. Armin. Great, life wants to play me more. I set down my try and sit down, and I instantly see Armin and Eren shaking. Mikasa tries to stay calm, but I can see a hint of fear for Armin and Eren. It was very quiet. All the noise in the room was gone, and everyone stared at both me and Armin.

"If you have a problem with me sitting here then I'll go eat somewhere else." I was irritated, is there no place where I can be treated like a normal human being?!

"N-n-no i-it's-" Armin was full on scared now. He tried his best to speak, but he stuttered a lot.

"Don't play dumb with me nerd. I know your scared, and so I'm doing you a favor." I grabbed my tray and tried to make my way outside.

"Leave him alone!" People were shouting. Armin was very innocent, which made people want to protect him.

"I am you idiot! Now shut the hell up or else I'm going to beat you all up to death!" Eveveyone settled down and made a path for me to get through, but Eren tried to grab me from behind, but failed to do so because he ended up falling on his face. Mikasa tried to knock me down, but also failed. I through my tray up high into the air, and blocked all of Mikasa's punches and stopped my hand from hitting her throat while my other hand caught the tray. Which still had everything perfect in it.

"Try me." Was all I said. She looked surprised. Eren was shocked. Eveveyone was. Then I just walked out and found a place to eat my food.

As I ate, I thought of what just happened. Was this the type of person I wanted to become? The more I thought about it, the more I started to hate myself. Why did I have to be so mean? I felt really bad for hurting my colleague's. Although, I can't change who I have become. Everyone already thinks I'm scary, and I am. I sometimes scare myself. Although, I kind of feel bad for scaring Armin. It was like my heart got a little hurt or something like that. I can't explain it. What does it mean?

I try to think of something else to distract me. So, I just focus on eating. I look at my surroundings, and it's actually quite beautiful. Even though it's just grass and a bunch of trees, it's all the nature I can get within these walls. Sometimes I wonder what kind of beauty lyes beyond those walls, except for titans. Their horrible. I start to think about how life would be if titans didn't exist. It would be nice if there was such a life.

A few minutes later, lunch was over. It was time for us to practice cutting the titans nape in the forests. Not only did it help us with our aim and efficiency, but it also helped us get used to the 3D Maneuver Gear. I always got a perfect cut, and sometimes when I was angry or irritated, I would cut so deep that the whole head peice would snap off. I was always ready to go out and finally kill the bastards that took everything away from me, but all I could do was just wait for that day. Until that day comes, I'll always try to become stronger.

Time Skip~

It was night, and for some reason I couldn't get Armin off my mind. His terrified expression was haunting me. Maybe I feel bad for scaring him so badly? He looks so innocent and fragile, but I hate him, don't I? I don't know what to think of my feelings. I slowly drifted to sleep still confused about my feelings. The night was nice and cool, which soothed me from my tense thoughts.