Chasing My Rejected Mate

Chapter 2: Blue-Gray Eyes

"Blue-Gray Eyes"

It was already a month since I found my mate. And all this fucking month was hell for me. My wolf won't stop crying in pain for losing our mate. The pain is incredibly increasing every time I remember her sweet voice utter those words.

I know it was me who rejected her first and it was stupid of me to reject her. I grabbed another glass of beer on the counter and drink it straight. I lose count of how many drink have I taken since this morning.

"Get yourself together Dwayne and stop drinking!" I growl at Zion who is my soon to Beta once I inherit the Alpha title.

"Shut up and leave me alone!" I took another shot but he stop me. I glared at him but he didn't flinch an inch instead he glared back at me.

"I know your a total asshole for rejecting your mate but acting like a total ass won't get her back." He then let go of my hand.

"SHUT UP!" I grabbed his neck and growl at him as I felt my wolf wanting to ripped his head off.

"Go ahead kill me, but that won't change the fact that you rejected your mate." He bark, I tightened my gripped to his neck. He started to turn pale. I know I should let him go but my wolf is really angry and out of his rage. We are tired and hurt to even think straight.

"STOP THAT DWAYNE! " I cussed when I heard my mother rushed to us, I let go of Zion's neck and he stumble on the floor catching his breath. I can see the red mark left his neck.

"What is wrong with you?!" She glare at me but I dismissed her and pulled myself to the bathroom I don't want to hurt her. I heard her sigh and walk closer to the bathroom.

"I understand how you felt Dwayne, but nothing will change if your just gonna keep sulking and being wasted. Your a soon to be Alpha so act like one." She mutter before I heard her walk out of my room.

I let out a groan and pulled myself on the floor. I look myself at the mirror, I look like a complete wreck! My eyes are blood-shot from crying and drinking. I know it's stupid of me for even crying after rejecting my mate. I can feel my wolf turn numb and lost for losing our mate and it was all my fault! His pain is nothing to mine I actually felt sorry for him. 

I pulled a towel from the stool of my bathroom and took a warm shower.

I still can't get her out of my head. Her blue-gray eyes keeps haunting me every time I close my eyes. I let the water drop in my skin but nothing felt the same when her skin touch mine. I can still feel her touch and I'll do anything just to feel her touch again. I know this is all my fucking fault but fuck! I regret everything I said to her! I don't care anymore if she's a weak human, all I just want right now is to see her again. All this time I tried to find her but I can't even find a trace of her scent.

I got out the bath and pull some clothes in the corner, I somehow look descent for someone who did not even shower for almost a month. My wolf does not even want to communicate with me except for the time where he feels like killing everyone around us lately. And if he could kill me, I know he would not think twice about especially after what I've done to our mate.

I saw the empty glass of beer and throw it away, the shattering sound of breaking glass echoed in this empty room. My room is nothing but a complete disaster, falling pieces of furniture's, broken glasses from empty bottles of beers, clothes scattered around the corner. I sat down at my broken bed and burry my face in my palms. What have I done? 

I glance down at my hands drops of water pouring down on it, my whole body shiver as I let my eyes welled in tears again.  

A knock on the door followed by my father who I can't seems to read. He glance around my room and let out a sigh. I know too well why he was here, he probably want me to start acting as his rightful heir for his Alpha title.

"I know that you just want to lock yourself in your mess, but you have to remember that you were soon be inheriting the Alpha title. I'll see you in the training ground tomorrow." he said. But I know too well that if I don't show up he will drag me outside my room to the training grounds not that I even care about it. But my wolf lost so much already and I can't let him lose his rightful position as an Alpha.

***

The next day I got up early, took a shower and ran to the training ground. I was the first one here because I could not even sleep a wink. I started by doing my warm up by lifting the log of trees in the area after I'm finish other werewolves started arriving. Some of them can't even hide their surprise to see me here.

"Good to see you back." Glen said, he was one of the strongest warrior in our pack and now the Vice Captain. 

"Yeah." He seems to get the idea that I don't want to talk to anyone right now. And I know that already know why. Because there is no other reason for a werewolf to be agitated and broken unless it was related to their mate. 

They probably guess after my sudden outburst in the school that almost killed five pack members. I would have  actually killed them after I heard that Dino almost broke my mates arm, if not for my Father's command that time they are already berried underground. I heard they are already been sent in the borderline to keep them away from me because if not, their death will be early.

"Wanna spar?" I gaze at the new arrival, I don't recognize him at all. This is the first time that I saw him is he even a member of this pack?

"You probably don't know him, His name is Lindon from South Lake Pack his with them." He said pointing the the group of 10 unfamiliar werewolves that I hardly notice.

"Well wanna have sparring with me?" the new guy added. I'm not in the mood to do anything right now but might as well trained while I'm here.

I nodded my head and he smiled. I don't like that smile it makes me wipe it off his face. During sparring we are not allowed to transform to our wolves. Everyone gathered around us wanting to watch who would win. Well, it was in his advantage knowing I haven't been training for a month and some of them are probably thinking the same.

But I'm too pissed and broken, and I wanted to do something to lessen it. My wolf finally agreed with me for the first time. 

We both gather in the center, the others circles around us. Glen stand between us and remind us about the rules that no killing but until no one surrenders we won't declare a winner. Glen will still supervise to stop the match to keep us from getting badly injured to the point of dying.

"Are you ready?" Glen ask we both nodded are head and ready for position.

"FIGHT!" Glen walk out of the circle.

We circled each other, watching each others move. Trying to figure out what attack will the other do. He watch me like a hawk, giving me a cocky smile. 

"Soon to be Alpha, why don't you show me what you got?" he said, I can hear the excitement in his voice. He also wanted to die early.

I launched a punch at him but he dodged it, so I attack again using my left leg and he did not expect it, hitting his side. 

"I would focus if I were you." I warned, this time he was the one who attack for giving me punches from both side, he was quick but I was able to block them all. He jump midway and tried to kick me but I dodged it, he was luck enough to almost hit me.

"Aww, you were really fast." he whine. I don't know why he was acting like that. But he was eminence with power, I did not feel it at first but now I am sure of it. He could hit me earlier if he was serious enough in the fight.

His brown eyes is gleaming with excitement, he tried attacking again and this time he hit me right bellow my right abdomen. I wasted no time while he was still is awe, I make my move fast and swiftly move behind him and smack the back of his head.

He collapse on the ground unconscious. He was powerful but not enough to actually match my movements.

"I think that conclude my training, I'm going." All of them felt silent and I took that as my que to get out of here.