(This is my second time writing this because it got deleted!🙄 also it's my bday so yay)
February 2, 1984 12:34
MIKES P.O.V
I sit in the back of my moms car, staring out the window. I'm scared. I've never been to a physiatrist. I've heard they're for really sad people. And I'm not sad.. just disappointed. Not at el. At me. El would want me to get help. I chuckle. El wouldn't even know what a physiatrist is. We still have about half an hour before we get there, so I close my eyes and lean against the door. I let the vibrations from the motor flow through me. My mind slowly goes blank as I rock myself to sleep.
KARENS P.O.V
I look in my dash mirror and see Mike leaned up against the door asleep. He has always looked so adorable when sleeping since he was a baby. His mouth hangs open just an inch and his eyes flutter. I still remember holding him for the first time. I put my eyes back on the road. I hope this physiatrist is good. Joyce recommended him to me. Apparently he's good with kids. Let's hope that's true. About 30 minutes later I pull up to a brick building. The sign on the front reads "Dr.Duffer: Kid physiatrist" I park and turn around to wake up Mike. I lean over and shake his leg. "Mike. Mike sweetie time to wake up. Cmon."
MIKES P.O.V
I feel someone shake my leg. I slowly flutter my eyes open. I see my mom. "Time to wake up. Cmon." I groan and sit up. "Do I have to?"
"Yes you do. Now let's go." I open the car door and stand up. I look at the sign. It reads "Dr.Duffer:Kid physiatrist" with a cheesy smiley face next to it. Dr.Duffer. Sounds familiar. I shrugged the thought out as we walked in. A cool breeze hits me. "Mike you stay here while I check us in" I go and sit in a chair next to a wall. Beside me was a basket of kids books. I sigh and stare straight ahead. I closed my eyes for a few minutes. "Mike.." I open my eyes and look around. It sounded like a young girl. But there's nothing there so I close my eyes again. "Mike.." there it is. I open my eyes. Straight across the room sitting opposite from me was a young girl staring at me. She looked around 9. She had short blonde hair that went to her shoulders and bright blue eyes. She looked nervous. I didn't think much and I tried not to make too much eye contact. I then heard her breathing heavily so I looked her direction. "Mike I'm..." "okay sweetie let's go! Dr.Duffer is waiting!" My mom says as she takes my hand and pulls me towards the door that lead to the hallway. How does she know my name? Who is she? I'm soon lead into Dr.Duffers office. He was a medium height man with brown shaggy hair and a beard. "Please, mike, have a seat." He says as he points to the chair in front of his desk. "He will be ok now" he said towards my mom. "Oh.. okay. I'll just wait outside then." She said as she walked outside. We sat in awkward silence for a little bit until he asked me a question. "So Mike, how have you been feeling lately?"
"Uh.. sad, I guess. Disappointed."
"Disappointed? Why so."
I knew I couldn't tell him about the upside down or el. "Um. Because I haven't been happy enough. Or good enough."
"We all feel sad sometimes Mike."
"I know. It's just.. this sadness is like a disappointed sad.. I guess."
" I see." He jots something down on his notepad. What the hell could he be writing down? " your mom told me you broke a board."
"Yeah. I did."
"What happened that made you do that?"
I think of el killing the demogorgon and will with the walkie-talkie.
"My friend made me mad."
It technically wasn't fully a lie.
"What did your friend do? Would you like to tell me his name?"
No way I was gonna let him drag Will into this.
"Look it really wasn't his fault ok? How is this gonna help me? Can't you just give me medicine or something?"
He chuckles. How is this funny?
"We can't just give you pills like that. It could be dangerous. We need to talk first." How is something helpful dangerous?
We sit in silence for a little while. I look around. There was poster hung on the wall behind that said in big bold purple letters "suicide isn't the answer!" My cheeks get red. Obviously it was for el. Stop that Mike. She's still alive! My thoughts are broken by Dr. Duffer talking. "Do you think your a disappointment to someone?" I was taken aback.
"Yes."
"Who?"
"My girlfriend."
I could've saved her.
"All boyfriends usually thinks they are a disappointment to their girlfriend sometimes."
"This is different sir."
"How so?"
"It just is."
He stares at me for a while. He writes down something on his notepad. He shakes his head.
"Has anyone close to you died recently?"
What the hell. Why would he ask me that. I feel my blood boil. Tears form in my eyes. All I could think of was el and her last words. "Goodbye Mike." My name. My name was the last thing she said. I love her. And I feel that someway she loves me too. I couldn't help myself. Tears started falling down my face. "Mike what's wrong?" He asked. "Just leave me alone!" I shout. I opened the door and ran to the end of the hallway inside a gap in the wall. I grab the corner of the wall and break down in tears.
KARENS P.O.V
I was reading a magazine when Mike busted through the door crying. He ran to the other end of the hallway. what happened? I walk into duffers room. "What the hell did you do to him?"
"Honestly mame I don't know everything was doing okay until I asked him if someone that he knew had recently passed away."
My eyes widen. Oh no. "Thanks anyway" I say as I head towards mike. He's leaning against the wall sobbing. "Mike sweetie are you okay?"
"Obviously not mom" he says between sobs. I rub his arm gently. "Everything will be okay sweetie."
"No it won't!" He says wiping his nose on his jacket. I look down. "Cmon let's go sweetie."
"Can I please have 5 minutes alone mom?" He says.
"No sweetie we need to get out of here before he tries to make me pay for this stupid appointment."
"Just five minutes....please." I look into his eyes. They were glistening from tears. "Okay.. just five minutes. I'll be out in the car."
"Thanks" he says. I walk Away towards the waiting room. What am I gonna do with him?
MIKES P.O.V
I stand there for a minute, occasionally wiping my nose on my sleeve. What am I gonna do with myself? After I breathe and calm my heart I start to head towards the waiting room. Just as I was about to open the door I hear a noise. "Mike.." oh hell no. I turn and see the mysterious girl from earlier standing in a gap in the wall next to a water fountain. I walk up to her. "What do you want!? How do you know my name!" I yell at her. Tears form in her eyes. She looked scared. Oh yeah. She's 9. "Mike I'm-" " don't say my name. Who are you?" She stood there for a moment. She then looked down and rolled up her sleeve. There, on her left wrist, was the number "12."
TAH DAH! How'd you like it? It took me two hours to write this part! I'm really proud of it. 💕 I hope you guys liked it.
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