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Vivica P.O.V

It's been real hard on me lately, school seems to be getting harder. I am failing a class right now, Adarius doesn't even know and I want to keep it that way! I cant find my dad; he seems to be missing in action now for about 2 weeks.

Darius keeps telling me to go see my momma since I keep declining all her calls, as well as tossing her mail in the trash. I am so upset at her right now, I know eventually I will get over it, but right now I just want to stay mad at her.

I been so damn irritated I just want to punch something, more like someone (Kasandra) every time I see that girl weather it is at the damn bus stop, or the grocery store she always looking at me with a stink eye. Only reason I ain't pop off is cause I promised Darius.

Speaking of Darius I'm really fucking pissed of at his ass to lately since all this shit gone done, he seems to go out alot more! Sometimes he comes home late, and others times he don't come home at all. He claims he been working and hustling all night and that I'm tripping; but I just keep getting that feeling that my momma told me about. She told me that no girl or women is ever wrong about they man, and when they feel like they cheating 9 times out of 10 they are cheating on you. Right now that's how I am feeling!

I picked up my phone to see if maybe he would pick up, since I was feeling a bit down and out. "Ring, Ring, Ring, the person you are trying to call is not available please leave a message after the tone."

"Baby its me I was just calling to see what you were doing, I love you, call me back okay?" I hung up the phone and set it down. I layed down on the bed and drifted off to sleep.

"Love, and potions, were over dosing, I'm angry but I still love you, I still love, I still love, I still looovvvee." I grabbed my phone quick and answered it

"Hello?" I crooked out

"Baby, what are you doing?" Darius drunkenly slurred out the phone

"I am laying down its 3 A.M where are you at?" I questioned

"I am at the trap house making us some money! Where else would I be?"

I sighed slightly "okay well I love you....."

"Papiiii chulaaa...come here..lemme suck your dick."

"Who the fuck is that Adarius?" I yelled threw the phone.

"Its no one baby, go to sleep I will be home soon! Click."

I threw my phone across the room. "Viv don't go beat this bitch ass, don't do it Viv!" I kept repeating my self while I paced my bedroom floor. "Fuck this shit!" I threw my hair up in a bun and grabbed my baby oil. "I'm going to kill these bitches!" Once my sweats and sports bra was on I sprinted out the door. I began to run like a was in a marathon, I wasn't going to stop for anyone or nothing.

Finally I arrived panting like a dog, as I was trying to catch my breath I looked at the trap house. It looked like there was some type of party going on, there was several bitches an dudes going in and out. "Well I am going to stick out like a sore thumb!' I shrugged my shoulders and made may way towards the house.

All the hoes was looking at me in disgust; one bitch had the audacity to tell me that I was in the wrong area and the shelter was down the street, If I wasn't here for one reason I would of beat that bitch ass up in front of everyone including her momma! Instead I flipped her the middle finger while I continued to push my way through the party. After a good minute I finally found one Darius homies "Aye Brino!"

"Viv? What are you doing her? Darius know you here?" He questioned me while he looked around the party.

"Yeah, he told me to come up here and pick up his stack of cash real fast, you know where he at?"

"Uh..Yeah..Lemme go get him for you."

"No I don't think that's necessary Brino, you can just tell me where he is, I already know about that Spanish bitch."

He started laughing "awh you cool with that?"

I laughed back "Yeah Brino, I don't care! Where they at?"

"They up stairs in the first room on the left."

"Thanks Brino, I will be right back.!"

I ran up the stairs and when I got to the first door on the left I could hear her moaning, which just made me steam up inside I kicked the door in to see Adarius getting fucked by this ugly ass Spanish bitch.

"Puta do you know how to knock!"

"Yeah I do, but in this case I ain't here for that polite shit!"

I saw Adarius lift his head quick after he heard my voice.

"Baby it ain't what it look like!' He shoves the hoe of him and began to get up with his dick on hard; and that's when I blew up.

"Oh hell no and this bitch got you hard!" I leaped past him at this hoe ass bitch gripping her hair, I kept slamming her head on the head board over and over until Adarius pulled me off of her. She was unconscious on the floor but I still wanted to whoop her ass some more.

"Get the fuck off me nigga, I don't want you anymore, let me the fuck go!"

"Darius whats going on?" Brino came running in the room with is pistol out and ready.

"Nigga quit pointing that shit at my girl!" Darius yelled

"I ain't your girl Darius! Its over! Now let me go!" I was trying my hardest to get out of his tight grip.

"Shut the fuck up and lemme take you home!"

I spit in his face "FUCK YOU I RAN HERE I CAN RUN BACK!"

He let me go with anger plastered all over his face, than I felt a big wham on my forehead. For one moment I thought that Darius had hit me until he was yelling that stupid Spanish's girls name, which I couldn't get out clearly since my head was bleeding and throbbing all at once.

"Fucking bitch hit me from behind." I began to loose some of my vision "I am going to beat that bitches ass!" All I could see now is pitch black, I could still hear Darius trying to talk to me.

"Baby can you hear me? Can you see and feel me?"

I tried my hardest to respond, but I just kept feeling weaker and weaker.