I'm in love.
This feels...different than before.
I feel more.
It's scary becuase I thought it was love before. Did I just like her? Did I love her but as a best friend? Did I just force myself to believe I love her?
I was so fucking sure I loved her but I don't know anymore.
The thing is, this feels so much more...real. So much more loving.
It's sort of weird to have someone really care about you. It feels unrealistic.
My head isn't turning everything she says around to make it sound bad. Which is also scary. Is it that I've gotten better? That it was just with her that made my mind hate me? Was the relationship really that unhealthy?
I still have so many questions and so many confusing things to get through but there is one thing I know for sure:
I love this girl
~*~
Sooo...that happened
-S
