I wonder
Does her heart race when she catches me staring at her?
Does her hands get sweaty whenever she comes near me?
Does she want the entire world to know that she's mine and me hers?
Does she ever get a spontaneous urge to kiss me or hold my hand?
Does she really mean it when she says she loves me?
I want to know.
I need to know.
Becuase these things happen to me.
She says she loves me but does she mean it?
It doesn't seem like it.
And it hurts.
So fucking much.
I should move on.
I need to move on.
But I don't know if I want to.
Do I?
Becuase what if she does love me?
What if she does want to hold my hand or kiss me?
What if she does get nervous when I'm around?
What if her stomach does get crazy butterflies.
I want to know.
I need to know.
But I don't know.
I wonder.
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-S
