Hold On To The Feelings(mingkit Fanfic)

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My head is pounding so much.
It's unbearable. Damn! I need to stop drinking from now on.
I opened my eyes while pressing my head with both of my hands to stop it from pounding so much.

WHAT THE....? Isn't it p'kit's room? Why am I here when did I came back? And what really happened last night?

I looked around and saw p'kit sitting on the edge of the bed covering his face with both of his hands.

I sat up on the bed and cleared my throat to get his attention.

"Ermm..."

After a moment he looked at me.
And my heart felt weak as soon as I saw his face.

His eyes were red from crying. His hair was a mess. And you can still see the tears stain on his face. He looks so vulnerable right now.

I wonder why he's crying? Did I hurt him more while I was drunk? I tried to remember.

Then everything came flashing back in front of my eyes.

The fight. Sleeping with slut.

Did he found out?
My heart has started beating so fast.

What if he really found out?
What if he's gonna break up with me?
What if this is the end of us?

I stared thinking about all the possibilities.

But the fact that I cheated on him without thinking, is eating me up. This guiltiness is eating me up from inside.

I don't even know, if I should say something. I mean, we had a fight last night. And I don't know if he wanna talk to me. And I don't deserve to say anything to him anymore. So I waited for him to say something.

"Forth called yesterday. To tell me that he saw you at the bar, drunk with a girl." He started.

And my heart started beating even faster. Suddenly I'm feeling all hot inside. Like I'm gonna blast any moment.

And I'm not liking where this conversation is heading.

"I really wanted to leave you there after seeing your state. But I wanted you to know that I found out....." His voice cracked like he's about to cry again.

And with his every words I'm dying inside.

"I wanted you to know that... I...found out about you cheating on me with that slut." This time he broked down.

After seeing him in this state I myself can't help but cried with him.

"I don't even deserve your forgiveness but please forgive me. I wasn't even in my right mind. I was drunk. Please p' I'm sorry." I said tears dripping down from my eyes too.

"When I reached there, you were unconscious lying naked next to that slut. My heart is not strong enough to ignore that and forgive you. And you were the one who wanted to hold on us no matter what. Damn! I hate you so much right now" He said still crying hard.

"Ok, i know I made a big mistake and you don't have to forgive me yet. But please don't break it off." I said. My voice is cracking too.

I don't even know how to apologize anymore.

He didn't replied.

After a few minutes of crying silently he finally spoke up again.

"I think we need a break." He said and got up from the bed.

It wasn't a surprise that he would say something like this after what i've done. But It hits me right in my heart.

"Please p'kit. I don't wanna let go of you. I'll do whatever you say, I want to make up for my mistake" I begged.