"Just Be Yourself "

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It's Been A While && Me && Josh Have Gotten So Close && I Love It. I've Never Gone To His House && Today He Asked If I Would Come Over && I Said Yes Before He Could Get The "Come Over" Out Of His Mouth. I've Been Feeling Him && I Got A Few Tricks Up My Sleeve😏. Josh Is A Nice Guy && I Want To Spend The Rest Of My Life With Him❤️. I Realize I Have Came A Long Way. This Shows That If You Really Want Something For Yourself You Have To Put In Work && Work For It. I Was In The Gym 2-3 Times A Day Trying To Get My Weight Back On Track && Look At Me Now Living Life To The Fullest && Going On Dates With A Handsome Fellow Such A Josh. Life Is Great !
-Josh's House-
We Are Sitting On His Couch && He Bought A Bunch Of Snacks && Turned On Netflix. I'm Loving This Vibe. He Put His Arms Around Me && I Felt So Safe In His Arms. After This I Had To Make A Move.
Me : Josh Your Showing Me A Good Time
Him : I Know
He Looked At Me As If He Wanted A Kiss So I Couldn't Resist I Had To Lean In
Me : *Kisses Him*
Him : *Kisses Her Back*
Me : *Pushes Him Back && Get On Top Of Him && Continue To Kiss Him*
(They Continue For About 3 Minutes Then Josh Moves Her Off Of Him)
What's Wrong ? Did I Bite Him ? IS HE CRAZY?
Me : What's Wrong ?
Him : Nothing
Me : 😐Why Are You Acting Weird All Of A Sudden Josh ?
Him : I'm Good
Me : Be Honest
Him : No I Don't Want To Hurt Your Feelings😑
Me : What ? How ? Tell Me What's Going On ?
Him : Hayley . I Don't Like This New Person You Have Become😐
Me : Wait . What Do You Mean ?
Him : I Liked You Before. You Know When You Were Not So Skinny... I Liked You But I Didn't Have The Guts To Come To You && Talk To You But Now I Feel Like You Are Changing Yourself To Have Love Or For No Judgement. When I Seen You In The Park I Didn't Even Know How To Come At You Because I Knew You Was Feeling Me But I Didn't Like This Whole Change Thing. I'm Sorry Hayley.
😶😶😶😶😶😶😶😶😶😶😶😶😶😮😮😮😮😮😨😨😨😨😨😨😨😨😨😨😨😨😨😨😦😦MY HEART JUST TORE INTO A MILLION PIECES💔💔💔💔💔💔💔What Do I Say To This !?! I Was Speechless. I Tried To Speak But No Words Came Out. I Sat There Staring Into His Eyes As If Waiting For Him To Say "I'm Just Kidding". Those Words Never Came Out For Some Odd Reason😨. This Has To Be A Joke, It Has To Be.
Him : I Never Meant For It To Get This Far
I Wanted To Get Up && Hit Him Over The Head With A Frying Pan I Mean That's Really What I Feel Like He Just Did To Me. My Mind Is All Over The Place Right Now.
Me : It's Okay
Nah It's Not Really Okay I'm Just Talking To Make Conversation But I'm Really Finna Kill You In Your Sleep Tonight. Okay?
Josh : Really ?
Me : I Mean We Could Still Be Friends Right?
Josh : Thanks For Understanding Hayley
(He Goes In To Hug Me But I Reject It)
Me : Well It's Getting Late, I Have To Go. Be Ready To Die . I Mean Say Goodbye . I Mean 😂Bye
Him : Okay... Whatever That Means But I'll Text You Tomorrow
Me : That's If You Still Alive.