I pulled my headphones out a few hours later when I noticed my mom was stopping the car. I looked around and saw we were surrounded by a wooded area. It wasn't eery or nothing. It was actually kinda nice and quiet. The sun shined through the trees and the greenery seemed brighter.
I got out and looked at what seemed to be the center my mom was leaving me at. It was ranch styled and this other style I can't remember. Starts with a R I think. I don't know but anyways my mom started to pull my bags out the car and walking towards the entrance. She been real cold to me since she found out. Little does she know she's apart of the reason I'm here. This doesn't help the fact that she's being this way. Shit, I'm not even sure if she loves me anymore.
I grabbed the rest of my stuff and put my headphones back on. T-shirt by destiny's child blasted in my ears. I threw my Nike bag over my shoulder and wheeled my suitcase. I wasn't ready. Ready to be left alone. Staring at white walls and going without my only friend. I'm not tryna talk to someone who don't give a fuck about my problems. They just get paid to hear me spew my pathetic life story and tell me basic shit and pretend they care when really they wanna say "suck it up. We all go through bs. Deal with it".
My mind stopped when I walked in and saw this pretty girl sitting at the front desk. Her skin was light, long brown hair, bright blue eyes and braces. She was probably around her late 20s but who really cares about age when somebody that fine.
"Damn" I accidentally said out loud. The lady and my mom turned towards me. I looked the other way like I didn't say nothing. They continued talking and I sat down waiting for my mom to sign me in and what not.
I was vibing to my music hard when all of a sudden flashbacks started playing in my head like movie reels.
Flashback
I laid in bed staring at her as she slept peacefully. I wished everyday we could lay like this. Me wrapped around her body as I felt her breathing on my neck. I knew she'd wake up soon smiling softly at me and I'd life her chin staring in her eyes before kissing her. She'd blush and hide her face in my neck and I'd hold her tighter. This girl was my life and i spent every second with her that I could like it was my last.
Suddenly I was jolted by a loud bang. I shot up and saw my moms car outside. She wasn't supposed to be here. Not until tomorrow. Fuck...
I shook my girlfriend quickly and told her my mom was here. She grabbed her things but we realized there was no where for her to go. Before we could think my mom walked in and saw me and her half dressed with panicked expressions on our faces. I saw the anger and disappointment all over her face. Before I could stop her she...
My mom shook me snapping me out of my flashback. I rubbed my eyes and stood up walking over to the desk with her.
"This is your room number and your key. Don't lose it okay. You can get settled in and someone should be coming in to check on you". The lady handed me a key and a piece of paper with the number 27 written on it.
My mom sat my stuff in front of me and looked at me. She looked torn, confused, uncertain and careless. I felt like the love she had for me when I was young was gone. I hugged her hoping to pull some type of loving emotion out of her. Maybe a tear but nothing. I pulled away and picked up my belongings.
"I love you" I told her looking back as I walked away. She stared nodding her head.
"Everything will be okay once you get better" and with that she left.
I watched through the window my mom pull out the dirt driveway and speed off like she didn't just abandon her child. I felt all my heart strings being tugged at. The lady at the desk came up behind me patting my back and grabbed my things leading the way.
I stared at the room that was now my new home for the next three months. I could already feel the loneliness creeping in. I wanted so badly to be held I only have myself. One day I guess..
