Jacari's P.O.V.
I walked to the bathroom to get ready for another day. I stood in front of the sink staring into the mirror. My hair was a mess and I still look pretty tired but today is one of my good days. I brushed my teeth, jumped in the shower and proceeded back to my room.
I threw on a white T-shirt, a pair of sweats, my Nike slides and put on my neff beanie. Wasn't exactly in the mood to do anything with the mess on my head.
Oh yeah before we start off with my day Im Jacari. I've been here for a while now. I honestly haven't thought much about getting out of here. There's not much outside of here for me you know. After being abandoned so many times you don't expect much from anyone. Nowhere for me to go out there. No one waiting for me...
I proceeded out to the cafeteria and stood by the doors waiting for Caiden. Were not like best friends or anything buh I guess he's like the closet person I have to a friend. He got here about the same time as I did. He has really bad problems with social anxiety buh he's gotten a lot better. He'll probably get to leave soon. Another person out of my life I guess.
He walked to me waving shyly. His long curly light brown hair bounced with his every step and his green eyes lit up a bit when he saw me.
"Hey Cari" he said softly walking next to me going into the cafe.
"Hey" I said back.
"You seem good today. Its been while wouldn't you say since you've had one of your days. That's good. Maybe that means you can get out soon to like me"! I shrugged as I grabbed a fruit cup and sat at our usual table.
"I doubt it buh yeah sure". I felt kinda bad. He tries to keep my head up while keeping his up to and I jus come in knocking it down.
I scanned around the cafe looking at everyone. Most people sat by themselves. If not it was two people together. I was about to say something to Caiden before I noticed an unfamiliar face. She sat far across the room by the window. I couldn't exactly see what she looked like buh from a distance she looked kinda cute.
"Who's that"? He asked me looking at the girl.
"I was wondering the same".
Her black hoodie covered her hair and she seemed zoned out. I didn't even notice I was staring until Caiden snapped me out of my own little trance.
"You like her"? A look of concern was on his face as his bright green eyes stared into mine.
"I don't even know her. I don't like anyone nor do I get attached. Best way to not get left right"? He nodded slightly and I got up throwing my cup away. Caiden followed as we left to get ready for group.
A few hours later...
I sat on my bed and threw my beanie on to the night stand. It was only 1pm buh it felt like night. I spent my time at group and walking and talking with Caiden. I always have the hardest time getting rid of him. He's pretty attached to me and considers me his best friend. I told him once that he wasn't a friend to me. He understands my situation buh I know it pains him. Though I try to tell myself that he's just a kid I hang out with I still know it'll rip at me when he leaves.
Fuck it. I was gonna lay here in misery buh my body isn't gonna let me. I got up and put my beanie back on headed outside. I went out the front door and sat on the steps. I've been pretty lucky lately. I haven't been low for a minute and I'm actually getting out of my room. Wonder how much longer it'll last.
My mind wondered until I saw her again. This time I got closer look and shit, she's beautiful. Glowing brown skin and big brown eyes to go with. I wonder what her name is and why the fuck is she wearing a hoodie in 90 degree weather. She caught me looking at her as she walked by and I ducked my head down. I looked up a few seconds later and she stood in front of me. Our eyes locked and I felt something. Some weird shit I've never felt before. I didn't like it..I mean I kinda did. I don't know.
"I see you ya know" she said pushing her hood off revealing her thick black curls.
I stayed quiet not knowing what to say. I just sat there like I didn't speak English. I don't really like people so I don't speak buh in this case I was just lost for words.
"I'm Alyx. Your name"?
"...Jacari".
She nodded and smiled at me. I could already feel where this was going and I had to go.
"I gotta go buh nice meeting you". I stood up and headed back to me room. I stayed there for the rest of the afternoon in deep thought. Attachment only leads to pain and im not sure if I can take anymore of that.
