Merlin (x reader) One-shots

Tell them or i will

The sunlight fell over you as you began to wake from your fitful sleep.
Geez I don't remember the ground being that uncomfortable.
You thought miserably as you stretched out, your back giving a large click.
Well better continue before they find me.
Running away from Merlin was one of the worst mistakes you've ever made in your life but somehow you couldn't stop yourself the moment it happened. Catching Merlin fighting of a group of bandits with no weapons and only liquid gold eyes was the moment everything changed. You regretted everything that happened as soon as you calmed down. Everything. You knew magic was not a horrible thing and that not all those with magic were evil but watching Merlin kill people with it terrified you more than you were willing to admit.

As his eyes lost their golden hue your turned a vicious red.
How dare he! How dare he lie to us for years! He's evil! He's... he's a sorcerer!
You charged towards him raising the sword you'd found next to a dead bandit, prepared to end the sorcerers life but as you got closer and he stumbled backwards he tripped over his own feet, rolling backwards a few times before stopping on his back with you looming over him.
"Wow! What's going on? What are you doing?" He insisted arms held above his head as he stared at you with a heartbroken expression of betrayal and sadness. He knew exactly what happened, what you saw! He knew and he lied to your face about it.
"How dare you! How dare you lie there and pretend like I didn't just see that. Like I didn't just discover your big secret you, you sorcerer!" His face fell further as you finished your rant, morphing into that of fear.
"How could you keep this from us Merlin? What about Arthur? the knights? Me? How could you act like our friend this whole time? your nothing but a cowardly sorcerer hiding amongst us!" Your eyes brimmed with tears as you realised what you had to do now you knew.
"Please! Please don't! I can explain! Please, please let me explain! It's not like that! I am your friend!"
A single tear fell down your face as you raised your sword above your head. Merlin continuing to plead for his life underneath your watery glare. But as his you brought the blade down and he closed his eyes the sword embedded itself into the ground besides his neck.
"I cannot do it. I cannot kill you Merlin. You mean too much to me."
Merlin sighed in relief his head falling limply against the ground as he breathed deeply.
"But I will not keep this from them Merlin. As soon as we return I will tell them. All of them"
Merlin's head whipped around to face you.
"No.. NO! You can't do that! You can't tell them! They will kill me! They'll hate me! I won't be able to protect Arthur anymore! Please you can't tell them."
As Merlin continued to beg your resolve faltered you could not be the reason Merlin died. Sorcerer or no he was the closest thing you had to family other than Arthur.
"Fine Merlin I won't tell them but you will. ALL of it. I don't care how much sorrow it causes them you do not get to deceive them like this! You have 2 weeks Merlin. I will be waiting in our usual hunting camp near the farthest ruins. If you are not there in 2 weeks then I will return and tell them all myself" You faced away from Merlin as he began to walk towards you, panic clear on his face.
"What? No! What do you mean? You can't not come back with me! What am I meant to tell Arthur? Plus it's dangerous out there!" He clutched onto your arm as he attempted to get you to listen to him, pleading and shaking slightly.
You looked at his nose, to afraid to look into his eyes as you tore your arm out of his grip.
"Don't. Touch. Me." You demaded, ice seeping into your tone. You turned your monstrous gaze away from him, body tense as you spoke.
"I will not go back to Camelot and deceive those I see as family. I will not be known as the one who let a sorcerer go free." Facing towards him once more you aggressively stalked towards him as he scrambled backwards fear in his eyes.
"You will go back. you will tell them the truth. Then you will find me. With or without them behind you"
Taking your sword from the ground you stormed back to where the horses where placed, tightly gripping the reins you pulled yourself up and began to trot towards the ruins. Not seeing the shattered look Merlin gave you as you left.

Catching yourself as you tripped over another piece of the ruins you began collecting your pack and bedroll, preparing for the return trip back to Camelot. You really thought Merlin would do it. You never pegged him as a coward but here you were, at the ruins, 2 weeks and 1 day later. Knowing what you had to do now was eating you up with guilt.
Maybe I could just not lie but not tell anyone either. Yea, that'll work. If anyone ever asks me I'll tell them the truth but that'll probably never even happen right? Yea. That'll work. That's what I'll do.
You were startled out of your thoughts by the sound of coughing behind you. Clutching your sword and spinning around holding it directly in front of you you came face to face with none other than Merlin.
"It went well then?" You asked in a hostile manner a hint of sarcasm creeping into your tone as you stared at the lone horse grazing next to yours.
"I wouldn't say that, I mean we're here aren't we?" Suddenly turning you notice the rest of the knights creeping up behind you, all on foot and carrying the reins to their horses.
"Well I'll be damed." You said gobsmacked. Turning back to Merlin with a steely look you just had to ask,
"And they know everything?"
"Well of course we do! Don't be so stupid, we've known longer than you have!" Gwain shouted causing all the others to laugh.
"Wait what?" You huffed, sitting on some stone with everyone else.
"You all knew? And I didn't? Why wasn't I allowed to know?"
Merlin trusts everyone but me? How is that fair?
"It wasn't just you Arthur didn't know either. Its not that I didn't trust you or anything it's just that.. well. 1, you tried to kill me. And 2, Arthur was brought up believing my kind to be the most corrupt and evil beings in Camelot. You always agreed with him so what did you expect me to do. I also didn't tell any of them, they sort of just figured it out."
Staring at Merlin in horror you realised everything he said was true.
"do you even know why I hated you?" You quietly asked
"Why I made you tell him?"
He stared at you with an unreadable expression
"because of my blood. Because if who I am."
You dropped your eyes to the floor unable to look at him
"no." You paused as he put his hand under your chin and pulled your gaze back to him
"because you made me question everything they ever told me"

"I'm so sorry Merlin" you whispered, leaning in towards him as he did the same.
"That's okay I forgive you" his breath ghosted over your lips as you leaned even closer, his hand trailing to the back of your neck and your rising to cup his face.

"Well, isn't this just cosy? I see you two have made up then?" Arthur shouted over to you both ruining the moment entirely with a tiny smirk on his face.
"Back to work merlin. Horses won't brush themselves"

Hey all :)
Hope you liked this one, it's around 4am right now so I apologise if some of this doesn't make sense or there are any major spelling mistakes :) I'm currently out of requests so I'd be more than happy to write up some more of your guys ideas! :)

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