the Bradford Bad girl

PART 13

I was in Zayn’s room . and he was the singer . Zayn Malik .

“Oumayma?”

“i………..wow.”

“ what are you doing here?” he asked nervously and sniffed . he was crying? No , boys don’t cry , naturally .

‘ I …. You were singing?”

“ do you care?  I’m nothing, you told me  to leave you alone now leave me alone . “ he groaned  without looking at me . Naturally , I guessed that he was mad ..or sad .  or both .

“Zayn please …….”

“ don’t speak . LEAVE ME ALONE.” He almost screamed .

I bit lip “ I’m sorry. I was really nervous because of mum and all ..well it’s complicated , it makes me feel weak and nervous sometimes . sorry” I whispered and closed the door carefully . the corridor was dark, I started walking slowly so I couldn’t bump onto a wall or something like that .

Zayn’s voice . gold. Amazing………amazayn? Yes amazayn . his voice killed me .  he has talent . I felt guilty for a while , when I remembered what I said about him to Loubna “, he needs  to stop acting like he’s a celebrity , he has no talent “ I was totally wrong . now because of me , he lost his self-confidence. when I found the stairs , I stopped myself .i felt REALLY guilty ,  I needed to talk to him , so I came back to his room and opened quietly the door . he was whispering some incomprehensible words . talking to himself?

“Zayn listen to me …”

“AGAIN? I said leave me ,  go I don’t wanna see you.”

“Zayn you are talented . I’m sorry for everything , i I …I don’t hate you i……. but I wanted to tell you that you’re talented , that’s all .”

When I finished my sentence , I felt really better .  but I knew that it wouldn’t change his mood & feelings.

He didn’t answer or look at me . he I ignored me , like I did to him during all those days.

I sighed and went out his room . at least I told him the truth . I started walking again , without turning on the lights .i was shaking my hands in front of me ,  so I couldn’t bump into a wall or another door .

I walked , walked walked then *bam *, I was about to fall . “ oooopshiit” I mumbled

Someone grabbed  suddenly my waist tightly .

I sighed , I didn’t fall . But when I turned , I found Zayn ; holding me.

He looked at me , speechless , I did the same .

“ you were almost falling .” he finally prounounced .

I nodded stupidly .

“ come with me  .” he added .

I nodded again . My mouth was frozen . we went in his room , he turned up the lights and signaled me to sit on his bed. I obeyed .he sat beside me ,i was like in  an incredible  dream . Zayn , me . just us . no  no no . I don’t like him ..he  ruffled his hair and sighed : Oumayma……listen to me I ….i .did you hear me singing?”

 I nodded : “ yes . you are ..amazing , I mean your voice …’’

“oh , oh . thank…you. Actually you are the first person who hears me singing . “ he blushed.

I felt really weird , I wasn’t controlling myself , my words , my sentences : “ I’m glad really . Zayn i ..”

He looked up and interrupted me : “ now I guess you understood it , you understood that i ….”