DEAR BESTFRIEND,WITH LOVE.

||Chapter 1||

Just another day for the world. But for me? The last day I feel normal. The last time I see my best friend. I hate her,  I really do. But at the same time she was and will be the person whom I love the most. This is so sick. I glanced and at the clock and sighed. 3:23 am. Fifteen hours till she is buried six feet underneath. Twelve hours to prepare her eulogy.  But why am I even writing the eulogy? An eulogy for a person who left me. Who tortured me while she lived and wil continue torturing me till I die. But I need to write an eulogy. Sighing I picked up a pen and a notepad and started writing.
Everyone who has gathered here knew Hayley at some point or another. She was a great person with an unforgettable personality. I bet she is somewhere here laughing at our emotions. This is how she was. I mean she always knew how to make people smile. It's a shame she isn't here anymore. I still remember the first time I saw her. I was just a new admission and she was my first friend. Grade 2. I remember. She wore a pink t shirt and a white skirt. We immediately hit off. I just want her to be happy where ever she is.
That's it. That's the best I can write for a person who left me. Who taught me how to live and then left me. I really hate her. The only thing I have on my write now was that she betrayed me. She started hanging out with I girls I hated the most. Who does she think she is ? She couldn't make me hate her. I wish she could. I wish she was an angel. An angel that never dies.

There was a slight knock on my door. Before I could reply my mom waltzed in. I half expected her to come in and laugh at my pathetic state and inform me that I was pranked. But she didn't. She looked like she was the one responsible. Her face just just gave one thing. She felt guilty. In two big steps she came beside me and hugged me. It was as if she understood everything that I have in my mind. I could feel her tears running down her face. Hayley was a daughter to like her too. All I remember that this was my last thought before darkness consumed me.

"Erica darling. Wake up. It's almost one. You still have get ready. I bought this black dress for you. " My mom said as softly as she could. I couldn't understand. Hayley. She was getting buried today. I fell asleep last night.
Groaning, I collected myself and went to the bathroom. Taking a quick shower I slipped into a simple yet elegant black dress. I saw my reflection in the mirror and that's when it finally hit me. I was never ever going to see my best friend again. Never ever am I going to wake to a honking sound. No more EH. No more Erica - Hayley duo. No more Erica - Hayley moments. No more Hayley.
And that's when I couldn't stop my tears from becoming the Nigeria falls.
My knees felt weak and I was on the floor hugging myself and crying.
I shouldn't be wearing this dress. Hayley doesn't deserve to be dead. She just can't leave me alone. What am I going to do without her.
I collecting myself I entered my bedroom again. A cardboard box with a note was lying on my bed. Strange. The note was addressed to me.

"Erica,
I know you hate me . I  just know you do. Forgive me if possible?  Blocking you out wasn't the smartest choice ever. But I was dumber one and you were the smarter one,  weren't you? This box contains a bunch of letters I wrote to you while I kicked you out my life and tortured myself. Remember : A letter per day.

Love ,
Hayley."

A bunch of letters? That'll make up for her absence?  That's all she's worth?
I opened the box with tears clouding my vision. Here goes nothing.

Dear Erica,
This is my first ever letter to you. I'll always love you always remember?  I know I am not there for you physically. But emotionally we'll always be connected.
I am so sorryyy babe I let this sickness overcome me. But here, a bunch of letters to make up? Okay, I am sarcastic but I'll be there for you. Close your eyes and feel the wind around you. Clique. But that would be me.
I blocked you out of my life for the past couple of months, but I just did, what was the best. I started hanging out with the people you hate. I hated it. I hated them. Wherever I am while you read this, I'll hate them and I'll love you. I thought you'd hate me but you didn't.  You should have. I don't know what I ever did to deserve you. You are the bestest best friend ever.
Now, read this carefully, LET GO. Let go of me and my memories. I already made you suffer through a lot while I was alive and now that I 'm no longer around anymore ,just let go of every piece of me. I am not saying that you should forget me. Remember me , but move on. Make new friends. LIVE.
You'll thank me someday. Don't you dare become a zombie. Don't you dare become a member of the living dead. By the way do you remember those zombie series marathons? Cause I do. I'll always do. I'll remember you always.
Anyways, enough for a day.

Hayley,
The worst best friend ever. 

Definitely the worst best friend ever. As if stating the obvious would help me get over her.
I felt like screaming my lungs out. I wanted to scream , shout and cry. But I couldn't.  Hayley's funeral is in two hours.