It's been a month.
It's so hard without her.
I'm left with all these ... well, to put it lightly, annoying people.
Can't they see that I want to be left alone? Are you guys oblivious to the sadness I carry with me everyday? Can't they see that they are only hurting me by bringing her up.
We called. We Skyped. But nothing felt the same anymore. She only talks about her new school. She never asks how I'm doing. Is it wrong of me to feel jealous? To feel jealous of the people who has her now.
My heart shatters when she talks about her new school. When she talks about her new friends. When she talks about her new life. Which sadly, is hard for me to fit in.
Why is it that I feel so lonely now? I have friends, but none of them know how I feel. And her, she's just so far away that finding time to have a talk seems hard. And not forgetting that she's always busy with her new friends.
Me? What about me? Everyone seems to forget that I exist. What now? What do I do?
Best friend. It seems like a word which could make everyone even the baddest person's heart go soft. But yet, for me, this word is like a sting in my heart. It just reminds me that I'm no longer with my best friend. Should we even be called best friends now? With the distance between us. With everything that's going on. I feel like she's not the same anymore. I feel like our connection is not the same anymore.
