It's been a month now.
Everything here is different. I still couldn't get over the fact that the mall is only less than 10 minutes away. Last time, back home, it would take us at least 30 minutes to get to a mall.
I've made a few friends, but it's hard for me to open up. And also, not to forget the bullying. It's not really physical bullying, it's more of a verbal bullying. It doesn't really get to me much as this girl verbal abuse everyone. Everyone is saying that she does it to me because I have more friends than her, even though I'm new to this school.
I can't stop comparing the people here to the people back home. This girl acts like X. This girl talks like Y. This girl is in love with Korean-Pop just like Z.
I haven't gotten used to this place yet. It still feels foreign to me.
I wonder what it would be like if I went home now. Would everything still be the same? Would I get treated the same or differently?
But of course, something would remind me that there's no going back. I'm stuck here now. Even if I go back, it would only be just for a few days.
I try to Skype with her every night, but something always comes up. It's either she's busy with homework or she has to prepare for school activities.
I just feel like she doesn't want to spend time with me anymore. Is it the time for me to move on and let go of my past?
