Dear Diary, He is my angel

Part 8

Chapter eight:

Dear Diary,

I did not want to look up from the floor I was afraid ...... I slowly look up some of their eyes widened , but were softened.

Before they could say anything I ran out the door into the trees.

I could not deal with anything right now, why did I do it ? I heard my name being called out, but I stayed silent.

~~ Y/N

It was getting dark so namjoon told the girls to say in side the house.

Namjoon " Y/N please come out we are very worried about you."

They were starting to get near me so I did not move an inch to not cause any noise.

Yoongi " we will be waiting for you inside okay? We will not bother you, I promise." I heard them go inside the house.

Minutes later someone grabbed my arm. I wanted to scream, but they covered my mouth.

J-hope " it's me ! it's me!" I

Me " how-did-you-find-me-" He smiled and cupped my cheeks.

J-hope " After the boys left you made noise and I found you. We do not have to go back right now if you do not want to. We can talk or just sit here." I nod.

Me " please -let's-just-sit-here-for-awhile-"

J-hope " of course . um....I need to tell you something Y/N . I know you think you are not pretty, but that is not true. Actually I think you are beautiful and that scar is part of that. It strong you are strong. I love you Y/N ...."

Why do people like me or love me after everything I am not worthy of this.

J-hope " I know that I am not the only one that think of you this way, jungkook, and jin also have feelings for you, but It is up to you who you will choose. I will respect who you choose and so will they we talked about it."

Me " you-all-talk-about-this-?"

J-hope " I am sorry we did not tell you sooner"

I kept quiet and looked down.

Me " let's go back hobi" he smiled

J-hope " you gave me a nickname too ?!" I nod

Me " you-not-like-it?"

J-hope " I do it's just It was sudden, you gave one to jimin and jungkook and now me. We were the only ones without nicknames in the group." I smiled.

J-hope " Come let's now it's getting cold I don't want you getting sick" he carried me bridal style

Me " -hey-"

J-hope " relax I won't drop you...ahhh... just kidding " I glared at him before I started laughing hard.

I did not want to hurt them by falling for one of them, but I was getting confused now. He treated me the same even after what he told me and did not pressure me. J-hope put me down and we walked inside.

We came in the house laughing when Jungkook grabbed my wrist pulling me to him.

Jk " where were you Y/N ?" he looked at J-hope with a black face.

J-hope " she was hiding behind some trees "

Jk " thanks man"

Bora " thank God come here"

I followed her to the room.

Bora " let's continue your lessons"

Timeskip:

It was first period now with tae in music class and it was time to present the project to the class. The girls in tae choir had agreed to help record the lyrics for us so we were able to finish it.

Teacher " it's very good students you pass. I sense yoongi and namjoon were apart of this?"

Tae " yes mam "

Teacher " every well next group"

Me " we- passed-tae"

Dear Diary,

It time has passed now since I meet them, but I still can not speak .

Since it's been now officially 4 years since I spoke my tongue is not used to this .

I sound horrible bora says I at least can say some things and be great full.

Jessica says my scar is almost gone, so I don't hide it anymore.

Yeri says that My personality has stolen parts from each of the boys.

That's both good and bad., but I am more confident that's what matters.

Today is my first day at a speech therapist, jessica brought me.

I hope I can say some phrases soon.

~~ Y/N

Date 5nd day at therapist..

On my way to math class I was pushed by someone I landed on the ground .

Emily " oops ...oh it's just the mute " you held in the sadness and picked yourself up.

Emily " it's not like you can do anything about it" her friends took your device and threw it on the ground breaking it.

It was in pieces.

You bent down to pick up the parts but she steps on your hand.

Me " hurt!"

Emily " her voice is horrible . Why would BTS want to be your friend ? Maybe they just pity you."

Me " sstteeoopp ehit please" you covered your ears not wanting to hear more.

??? " I would stop that if I were you " you turned it was.................