Yoongi Little Space

°18

"Leaving already?" 

Yoongi knew it was a dumb thing to ask. They usually left earlier than this so the boys were already late.

"Uh huh," Jin answered quickly, walking around their dorm trying to find his lost phone. Everyone was walking around the dorm back and forth, making sure they didn't forget anything. Yoongi was sitting on the couch though, already bored and staring at his members panicking over their things.

He continued watching for a while until finally all members seemed to be ready.

"You sure you're going to be fine by yourself, hyung?" Hoseok asked first. Everyone was standing by the door, ready to leave but not before they said bye to Yoongi.

"Mmhm," Yoongi mumbled. "It's not like there's anything we could do about it either way," Yoongi continued while staring back at the TV blankly. Everyone sighed, knowing it was impossible for another member to miss the big end of the year show to stay with Yoongi. They couldn't have two members missing.

"We promise we'll come back as soon as we finish, hyung," Taehyung tried cheering up the elder. Yoongi shrugged and looked back over to them.

"You guys could go celebrate or do whatever you want after. I'll probably just sleep all day either way so stop worrying over me," Yoongi said with a small, forced smile.  

The other six members gave each other looks before Jin unsurely said, "Okay, fine. But we're still coming- "

Yoongi was already waving them off. "Yeah, yeah. Just go already. You guys are already half an hour late," Yoongi stated. Namjoon was first to look at the time on his phone and, Shit, he's right.

They all (finally) left after each saying a bye to Yoongi and shutting the door. The rapper sighed when he heard the last footstep disappear from down the hall and threw his body against the couch with a huge sigh.

"Now what?" 

~~~

It's been hours since the members left and Yoongi has been bored out of his mind. He's never really had a day off by himself. And he's not sure if he would like another either. Yoongi had tried sleeping but he couldn't even do that. All he did was stare at the wall blankly. 

It wasn't until he checked his phone when he realized that the show the others were performing on was about to start.

Yoongi gave a small smile, finally glad that he at had least something to do. Yoongi opened up his laptop and sat upright, leaning on the couch's arm rest and feet on the cushion to get comfortable.

Yoongi quickly typed in the website where it was being live streamed since it was about to start any minute now. When he saw the introductions started, he sighed in relief when he found out he hadn't missed any performances yet. Maybe this will be able to help his stress levels he's been dealing with lately.

~~~

It didn't help. At all. It actually seemed like it made everything worse somehow. 

Yoongi had been watching the other groups perform and was amazed at how good the performances looked. That just reminded him how he should be excited too right now and how he was supposed to be on stage in a couple of minutes instead of being at home alone. That thought kicked him right into little space.

"Not fair," Yoongi whined and crossed his arms, eyes still glued to the laptop, "I wanna be there with Daddy, Daddy, Seokie, Minnie, Taetae, an' Kookie too!" Yoongi complained to himself. Since Yoongi was now in little space, he mainly didn't care about performing now. Instead of how he was alone and how all of his caregivers were together without him.