The Worse Break Up

speechless

He looked at me with pure hatred. It saddened my heart to see him looked at me like this.

"I thought you were more mature than this Shani and here i am thinking I could give us another chance." He walked away leaving me speechless.

"Shamar wait" I yelled out at him. I continued talking when he turned around " Am sor-" he cut me off before I can finish.

"Yeah whatever, just don't be late for work." I nod my head too ashamed to speak
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I went home and took a shower and went to the daycare only to see shamar talking to my sister. This can't end well.

I walked past them without saying anything because maybe shamar is still angry at me." A good evening would be nice." I heard a deep voice that gave me butterflies I ran to him and gave him a hug.

He chuckled at me and I felt too strong warm hands around my waist.I wasn't a short girl so we were about three inches apart. That is when I knew I was forgiven.

"Shani can I talk to you?" He looked at my sister and added "in private"

"I was here first so if anyone gonna move its got to be you too."

"Let's go to the babies room" we both walked off in the opposite direction from that miserable girl in her miserable life.

When we reached in shamar closed the door and instantly his lips crashed on mine it was fierce it was like fireworks were going off in stomach then it all ended.

"That was the goodbye kiss. Shani I don't think I can keep doing this, this minute we are together and the next minute we are not. You are breaking me and you don't even know it I need to move on from you. I have forgiven you but I need you to stay away from me. We have been together for long I need to see new persons and you just keep holding me back.its time for you to let me go" he walked out of the room leaving me speechless this is like déjà vu all over again.

I sat on the chair and tears ran from my eyes. Those words sting. Mom came in the room with a crying baby in her hand the baby feels my pain too.

"What's wrong baby?" She put the baby in the crib and gave her a plush toy she instantly stop crying.

"Shamar told me he's move on from me"I told her everything and when I was finished talking all I wanted to do was take care of the babies. I worked all evening from changing pampers,making feeding, and putting baby to sleep.
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I reached home at 10:30 pm because ms.Campbell had an 'emergency' so she couldn't pick up her baby. We all know what that emergency is.
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I rolled over and turned off the alarm clock I got out of bed and went to the bathroom. When I was finished I braided my hair in two and went downstairs to see my sweet little sister which is sooo innocent note the sarcasm.

"Morning" I sat down and put cereal in my bowl.

"Mom! Shani is eating all the cereal." Alexa lied

"Why can't you just keep your f**king mouth shut!" I screamed at her she ran to her room crying.

"Shani,go and apol-" I cut mom off before she can finish.

"No mom I won't am sick and tired of this bullsh*t" I went to my room to cool down.am not angry at my sister but at shamar.

"Shani?" A small voice called. I looked up and see Alexa playing with her fingers she did that when she was nervous I felt sorry for shouting at her.

"Am sorry Lexi" I told her she ran to me and hugged me. I lift her up and put her beside me on the bed.

"I won't forgive you unless you play hide and seek with me."I chuckled at her.

"OK go and hide I will count to ten" she jumped off the bed and ran to her only spot. The wardrobe in mom room. mom was standing at the door all along.

"She really loves you and I want you to keep making her happy."

"Am sorry for what I said mom." I felt guilty for what I said

"You were going through your times its ok. Now go and find your sister you know what a hard job that is." She winked at me. I laughed at this.
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"Shani I wanna go to the mall" we were currently on my bed watching tom and jerry.

"Ok am going to ask mom for her card so we can go"

"Cool"
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We are at the mall looking clothes when Lexi said she was hungry. We went to a fastfood place.

"Let's go shopping again"

"I think we should take a break." Its like she want to empty mom's card.

We were going to my car to put  the items in the car when shani saw a icecream cart.

"I want ice cream"she demanded

"A please would be nice." I ordered two icecream cones I looked in my purse to pay the man but I didn't have any cash on me. I only carried mom card.

"Sir do you accept card?" I asked the old man selling ice cream.

"No miss."

"Ok" I replied to the man"Alexa let's go" I hold her hand but she stand still.

"I want ice cream"

"When we go home you get ice cream I don't have enough cash in me" she started to throw a tantrum

"Alexa when we go home we get ice cream." My patience with her was running thin.

"I'll buy you ice cream" I knew that voice from anywhere

"No were fine come alexa."I turned around and I didn't knew we where this close I stepped beside him and continued walking. Someone gently grasped my wrist that bring me to a halt.

"Please Shani?" He looked at me with hope in his eyes.

"Ok" we were just staring at each other when someone cleared their throat.

"I see why you didn't return earlier little bro."
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I know I haven't updated in a long while but see with me. I had sooner.I know that's not a good excuse.I will TRY to update sooner

I changed the title to Fierce fire please tell me which one you prefer