So Cold (Liam Dunbar)

Machine

"The treatments are no longer working. You cant keep doing this Skylar" The doctor said. And I knew he was right.

"Im fine" I knew i wasnt.

I glanced at my father who was distraught. He didnt know who to support

The oncologist who insists i stay in bed for the time i have left,

Or his daughter who just wants to live while she can.

"Skylar... it wont be long now. You exhausting yourself only cuts that time shorter."

He was talking about me dying, like it was nothing.

Maybe it was, because the world would still go on. I just wouldnt be in it.

"I rather die sooner and live to the fullest, then die later in misery" I said, I coughed my lungs burning.

"Very well" He said and went on to tell me how itll feel,

when I go.

The doctors appointment finally ended and we walked out to the car. My dad stayed silent but his eyes spoke wonders. He squeezed my shoulder tight and didnt let go.

Because he wasnt ready to let go.

"Dad... promise me youll go to support groups when...its time." I said looking up at him as we both got in the car.

"I cant." He whispered.

"Dad you-"

"Skylar Ann, you are my baby girl" His eyes got glossy "I cannot allow myself to heal and forget, while youre no longer here. I dont want to forget. Not ever."

"Dad, I know how much you love me. I dont think anything could ever make you forget.
"

With that my father broke down into tears and I threw my arms around him. I inhaled his familiar minty scent. I hope i can take that with me when it happens.

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"I love you dad" I said and kissed his cheek.

"I love you too baby girl, so much." He squeezed my hand and I knew he meant it with every fiber in his being.

And with that I got out the car and walked to the porch where stiles had just opened the door. I had asked my dad to drop me off here.

"Hey Stiles"

"Hey kiddo" He said and held the door open for me. Liam and Scott should be here soon, they went to get us all food, c'mon upstairs."

And with that we went up to his room where his board of evidence and clues had gotten bigger. But i couldnt focus on that.

I pulled a stack of envelopes from by backpack and handed them to a confused Stiles.

"Wow, these are thick letters. What are these?" He asked looking through them. His face paled as he noticed Names on each of them. 'Liam' 'Scott' 'Stiles' 'lydia' and so on.

He knew what they were.

"Theyre goodbye letters. For each and everyone of you " I said. "When it happens, I want you to give them out. Make sure you all get them. No matter how hard it is. I need you to be the glue that keeps the pack together."

He pressed his lips together in a line and fiddled his foot, anxiously. "The appointment went that good huh?"

I smiled sadly. "He says it'll be soon."

Stiles nodded fighting back the tears.'

"Ill do it. But these arent goodbye" he breathed, motioning to the letters. "They're "ill see you later" because I swear to whatever god I find Im gonna see you again."