Hide and Seek.

Now

Its dark. I'm alone. Scared of the things that could be lurking in the woods with me. Confused. Sad. Everything that just happened is. . . gone? Its a shit hole and honestly I just want to curl up into a little ball and fall to the ground just to cry. Normally I would try to fix my appearance, but this time its different. I don't care. Which is surprising because i'm the type of person to always care what I look like in any scenario. I'm changing by the second.

My emotions are turning every which way and I don't really know where to go from here. Where is the nearest building? Even a street would be nice. Just something to help me get back home. The fact that my phone is dead isn't helping my situation either. Not to mention that i'm in the middle of the woods not knowing what's waiting for me behind the trees ahead of me.

I don't know what to do. Everything is blurry. I want to believe that Lea, Marisa or even Tara is waiting for me somewhere close. I honestly want to see someone. Just anyone that hasn't turned. Ugh, I also need to find a place to sit. Anywhere at this point. I mean for all I know my death is just behind any of these trees. Maybe even lurking behind me.

Fuck, I really need to stop thinking about what is behind me or in front of me. I'm making myself really paranoid and freaked out. Its so cold out here and I wish that I decided not to go to school that day because maybe my friends wouldn't have asked me if I wanted to go with them to senior ditch day, they know that I have a really hard time saying no to my them. So of course they asked me in person. Making it that much harder for me to say no in the first place.

Back to reality though, i'm about to pass out. I need to find a safe place to sleep without worrying if i'm going to get taken by one of them or worse, killed. Iv'e been walking for hours. My legs and feet are killing me and I don't even know what to do. I'm still confused about this whole thing. Yet it all started with a stupid game that I was forced into playing. Hell, we were all forced into playing it.

All of a sudden, out of no where I hear a noise.

I stop.

 I can't make out where the noise came from. I'm going to try to focus all of my energy that I have left in me to try to hear any sudden movement. I'm trying so hard not to scream and run though. The only problem with running is that I don't want to run then figure out in the future that its actually Rae or something. I don't want to leave her to die. She's my friend. Unless she turned. If she already turned then it isn't Rae anymore. 

Then again, I think that if it is really Rae or one of my friends then they would at least say my name. Right? I mean. . . right??! Should I run or stay to my death? Run? Stay to my most likely death? I think i'm going to run. Ugh this is a horrible game! NO ONE WANTS TO MAKE THE WRONG DECISION AND END UP DIYING! WHY!? JUST FUCKING WHY!? Hopefully I make the right decision and don't die!

Just before I could run I hear the noise again. I charged for whatever was in front of me. My face feels hot and sweaty in the cold moonlight. As i'm running I take a deep breath through my nose and then exhale strongly from my mouth, at least making an attempt to try to calm myself. God, please don't let me die. I have to get back to my little sister. Who even knows what she's going through right now. I'm running with so much pain. Physically and mentally. Everything is stuck in my head and I have no god damn clue what to do or where to turn! This would be perfect timing to see someone, anyone who isn't turned.

My heart is racing, my body is shaking, and i'm freaking out. I try to calm myself down by saying that i'm safe, but my mind is wondering elsewhere and I can't help but to think that I am only safe as of this second. Before I know it i'm sitting here crying. The tears are sliding down my face making me in more pain because of all the emotions going through my head. I don't blame myself for crying, though. I have a good reason to. Not that I should be using everything that's happened so far as an excuse to cry.  I wish that I didn't have any reason to though. Unfortunately for me everything has changed now. My past is my old life now.