Can't stand to see you in pain

END ME

Kihyun woke up a little disorientated. Every day for the past 2 weeks he has gone to Shownu's room, sleeping next to the leader.

He just couldn't sleep alone. Somehow being near Shownu made his brain stop the mental torture.

It was easy, the way the other man oozed out the calmness. Kihyun couldn't help himself, trying to be as much as with the other as he could, just so he could feel like he used to.

''How did you sleep?'' Shownu, who just woke up seconds after Kihyun, asked, running his hand through his messy hair, making it even worse.

Kihyun chuckled at that. The sight of just woken Shownu was really adorable. He wouldn't mind waking up to this for the rest of his life.

And if Kihyun was more awake, he would have thought this idea to be odd, because since when did he start thinking of their leader like this.

''I slept good hyung.'' Kihyun smiled, and tried to fix Shownu's hair after seeing how much Shownu kept struggling with it.

''Let me,'' Kihyun slapped away Shownu's hands, ''you are just making it worse.''

Shownu side eyed Kihyun, whose own hair was probably even worse, but it looked so soft and fluffy.

''Ki?'' Shownu softly asked, but the seriousness was there deeply rooted in his voice.

''Mm?'' Kihyun mumbled, still focusing really hard on Shownu's hair, it just didn't want to straighten out and it was pissing Kihyun off.

''How have you been lately?''

''Better.'' Kihyun said, and he really meant it. ''I have been feeling really good lately. You don't need to worry.''

''I always worry.'' Shownu grabbed Kihyun's hand. ''You'll tell me if you start feeling bad again, right? He squeezed Kihyun's hand tightly.

''I will Hyunwoo.'' Using Shownu's name, he knew Kihyun really meant it.

''I think you should really switch room with Wonho. You move here and he goes to Kyun's.'' Shownu said, and got up from the bed looking for clothes to put on.

''Are you asking me to move in with you?'' Kihyun dramatically acted, clutching his shirt.

''You are already living here anyways Kihyun.'' Shownu lazily snarked back.

''You need to put a ring on this finger,'' Kihyun raised his ring finger, pointing at it with heart eyes, ''I'm a simple guy.''

''I'll work really hard to buy you the best ring.'' Shownu laughed, which made Kihyun glare before laughing as well.

These kinds of morning were the best, both of them joking, smiling. The whole atmosphere was just so relaxing.

And Kihyun is playing a dangerous game. With Shownu. His hyung, a friend, team leader.

**

''I think I'm in love.'' Kihyun said to his psychologist at their 7th meeting.

''With that handsome man who waits for you every time you come here?'' she smiled, but then stopped when she saw the troubling face.

''But it might just be me latching onto someone who is trying to help me and I'm confusing it with love.'' Kihyun explained.

''This is one way of thinking. And it's a good thing you came up with it yourself.'' She agreed. She has seen this pattern way too many times.

''Do you want to talk about that or maybe we should discuss your general state.''

''I'm fine, I think. I mean it seems that the meds are working, I'm calmer. My friends pointed it out. And I'm feeling a little bit more like myself.''