Ainsley's Journal To The World

Anxiety

Breathe
In and out
My chest is bound tighter with every breath
Everything I have ever felt swirls In my mind like a tornado willing to uproot every accomplishment I've made
My heart pounds without rhythm
As it grows harder to breathe it grows harder to fight everything I am feeling
My palms grow sweaty and I start to attempt to process everything I feel
None adds up
Why am I thinking about this
It happened over a year ago
It's over
It's done
There is no reason for you to look for an answer
There isn't one
It's not like algebra where there is always an answer for x
I'm running out of breaths and my fists are growing tighter
I bring my already wet palms to my face to hide the streams coming from my eyes
There is no answer to this
Don't tell me there is
Just be there
Tell me it's okay
Hold me until I know that I am worthy of your love
Show me how much I mean, because right now I feel absolutely worthless