☕ || nineteen.

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by 1yanan

by 1yanan

EDITED - 10 JUN 2020

"this is something i noticed recently," jooheon spoke after he called changkyun over to the living room so they could talk.

them two having more serious talks was happening way too much the last few days and it was making both of them feel extremely uneasy but it really was affecting changkyun much more.

"at first i didn't pay much attention to it but..." he didn't want to say it directly. it was going to ruin the whole point of the careful approach.

changkyun was just staring at him, waiting for him to just say what he wanted to. nervousness was building inside of him but, after all, it wasn't like he had anything to hide from him anymore. he felt too exposed in front of jooheon.

"just tell me when you need to be left alone, okay?" he rested his hand on changkyun's shoulder. "and if we have people over, just make a sign and i will do anything for you to be alone for as long as you need. i know that you would feel too bad to send them away because i would feel the same and i completely understand. but we're going to find a way--"

"stop," changkyun cut him off.

jooheon tilted his head lightly in a questioning manner and raised his eyebrows up, confused by changkyun's reaction.

the younger slowly moved jooheon's hand away from his shoulder and took it in his own hands, placing it in his lap. "i really appreciate the fact that you are concerned, but i don't need help. i'm fine the way i am and i need to find a way to deal with everything alone. i'm not supposed to depend on others all the time for everything until i have no idea how to do something by myself. "

jooheon sighed quietly and just tapped the top of his thigh lightly. changkyun quickly got the hint and moved to sit in the older's lap.

the latter wrapped his arms tightly around changkyun's smaller body and pressed a soft kiss against his temple.

"but you know..." changkyun hummed quietly before glancing up at jooheon. "hugs really calm me down... they kind of help... not anyone's hugs, i guess... yours are really nice and warm..."

of course, maybe no hugs could be better than hyunwoo's but jooheon's hugs felt good in a much different way. they were making the younger boy's heart do backflips and completely melt.

"so, whenever you're having problems i should hug you or what?" jooheon snorted as he started playing with a strand of changkyun's navy blue hair.

"most likely."

"okay then."

jooheon was really not planning on leaving it like that, but he currently had no other choice. he understood why changkyun didn't want help to that extent.

he made a quiet smoochy sound and changkyun quickly put his hands on either side of his cheeks, leaning in to kiss him with a little bit more force than he intended to. so hard that jooheon lost a bit of his balance and caused him to quickly hold onto changkyun's waist.

unfortunately, changkyun was not very reliable, so jooheon fell on his back, almost hitting his head on the armrest of the couch. changkyun was just looking at him with a cute pout on his face before kissing him again. he was starting to like kissing him way too much.

jooheon moved one of his hands on changkyun's face, cupping his cheek gently.

"i just want you to feel good no matter what," jooheon whispered. "that's why i want to help you."

"i'm fine."

"i'll believe you."