Shawn Mendes - fanfiction

Part 5 - Feelings?

"Hey Hannah we have heard so much about you" Shawn's mom says. I recognize her only because I'm a fan of Shawn. Or, I'm still a fan but not in the same way. Being a fangirl over one of my closest friends would've been quite weird, right? "Hey!" I answer just before Shawn raises his voice and says "Give her space, let her come inside the house!". As I go inside I see his sister. She sneakily watches me from the second floor. "Hi" I say but she just goes away. After lots of hugs Shawn leads me into his room. "Well this is my room, at least for a few days more. I will move to my own place just one day after you get home." he says. "wow, your room is everything. Cool, cozy". I had expect a total other thing. Shawn just laughs. "Shawn, can I ask you a really weird and like awkward question?" "Hit it" "So how do you talk to parents in this country, you know in Sweden we just call them by their first name and not like mr and mrs..." This was totally the most awkward thing I've ever asked him. "Sorry, I couldn't' help overhear you guys but Hannah, you can call us Karen and Manny" Karen says friendly. I just smile for an answer.

After like 30 minutes the whole mendes family plus me are sitting downstairs having dinner. "So what are you doing on your free time Hannah?" Manny questioning me. "Well, I have a big interest in makeup and clothing. Then I also has a blog." I answer. "What?" Shawn asking and looking really surprised. "I'm not famous or anything.  I'm having like 300 readers a day." Shawn is looking scared. "I promise I haven't posted anything about our friendship. I can show you later!" I say in defense. "It's cool, I trust you" he is answering while the scared look is getting of his face and turn into a little laugh. "Wow Shawn get to know the girl before bringing her over the ocean to OUR house." Aaliyah is saying in a nonchalant tone. "Please Aaliyah not now." Karen tells her. "HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO STAY CALM WHEN SHAWN IS BRINGING LIKE AN UNKNOWN GIRL HERE WHEN HE KNOWS THAT HE ALWAYS GET HURT!" she is screaming before running up to her bedroom. And yes, that's how my first dinner with his family went.

The first day is coming to an end and the sun is rising the next morning. I've been awake for hours due to the time difference but I don't want to wake Shawn up. I'm lying on an air mattress beside Shawn's bed. He looks so beautiful when he sleeps. So calm and peaceful. I don't know what's happening to me. I never sees details in people except for Shawn. I can see his cheek scar and how his chest is rising as he breaths in. Minutes passes and I'm still looking at him. Then my thoughts goes to Aaliyah and what she said during dinner last night. "when he knows he always gets hurt". What's that supposed to mean. Just as I start to overthink I can hear a deep morning voice from my right side. "Mornin'" he says. "Morning". "Did you sleep well?" He asks. "Well, I've been awake for a quite long time now but yes, I slept good." "Why didn't you wake me up?" "You just looked so calm, I didn't wanted to make that go away." "Where did I find someone like you?" he asks with a smile and I just shake my head while laughing. His curly hair is all over the place. Some people might wanna call it messed up but I'm not one of those people. It was too perfect to even be called a mess. "What?" he asks. "Nothing".

After like an hour of watching Grey's anatomy he just randomly is speaking up and saying "About what Aaliyah said last night, don't worry about it. She's just mad." "Oh, okay" I answer.  Shoot, now I can't ask him about it without being clingy.

We just spent the whole day by talking about everything, from deep stuff to really, I mean really bad jokes. I just felt so happy and safe with him. Like he had some kind of shelter that pushed all the negative things away. I also got my welcoming hug that day. I know I don't have romantic feelings for him but it was definitely more than just friendly feelings. The thing is that I think this is really good, to take it slow. Build up a friendship of trust and loyalty before being something more. Then I got scared. Actually not fearing what he felt but of the situation. What if it all would start to go faster. Would our relationship go down just like my last one did. At the same second, when I thought of my last relationship I realized that me and Shawn barely knew each other. I have a lot of things buried deep down and I didn't hesitate for one second that he had things too. But how is our relationship going to work when the American leg of the tour starts and I will be home. No, seriously Hannah, live in the moment I remind myself just as I feel my eyelids getting heavier and heavier and just a few seconds later I were sleeping with my head resting on Shawn's chest.

Shawn's POV

"Hannah?" I whisper but I don't get any answer. That's when I realize she's sleeping. Her face is looking so soft, so gentle. I've given a lot of thought to what my sister said yesterday. What if she saw something I couldn't. No, no way. Hannah's pure not like the other girls I'd met after Lauren. I felt something from the moment I saw her in the crowd. Her hand was resting on my stomach with a light touch. Am I starting to gain feelings for her? What am I even trying to do. I've always had feelings for her and they only grew stronger and stronger. But before taking any step closer to a romantic relationship I have to get to know her better. There were one thing that Aaliyah was right about. I barely even know her.