2.58 A.M Thoughts

let go of you

Today doesn't seem real,
that might be because today I can't feel
I can't feel the sun, moon, or stars,
i miss the love that used to be ours

I wish you were here,
coz now in my mind your face is no longer clear
The memories of you are almost lost
My love and trust I have already tossed

So when you leave,
Please promise me this time you will just let me be
Let me be me and only me

You always come back to haunt me,
follow me everywhere
But this time, my life no longer will I share

Forgetting you is something i will never be able to do
Even though i say i hate you,
you know it's because i love you
Let me know you can't forget me either

When you do,
i'll know it's true because you're not a people pleaser
I pray and pray to be able to let you go,
but there's just something about you,
What i don't know

When I'm with you I feel like I'm flying,
now all I'm doing is crying
I'm hurt and numb
Without you now I feel so lost and dumb
What you did to me and put me through hurt so bad

Your love used to make me happy,
now it makes me cold, hurt, and sad
Every night I go to bed clutching my pillow pretending someone loves me

I'm stuck,
there's nowhere I can run to or flee
I have no choice,
i have to keep walking on
Like new legs on a baby fawn

One day, someday, i'll be free,
Free to run and walk
and be fine being a lonely me