Everything Comes To an End

Total Stranger

Zoey pushed me back into the stall causing me to fall and hit my head on the toilet. I tried to get up but I was so weak and dizzy I could barely see fucking straight.I tried screaming for help but Mackenzie thought it would be funny to slap me across the fucking face.

''YOU FUCKING ASS WHOLE HOW MANY TIMES DID I TELL YOU NOT TO MESS WITH US!!!!!'' Zoey screamed

Bella came over and started punching me in the face,I begged her to stop but she wouldn’t listen.You see this is why I shouldn't be alive i’m always getting myself into fucked up positions that I can't handle.

Bella had punched me soo hard I could barely feel anything, my face was completely numb.

UGHHHH WHY DID I HAVE TO BE SOO STUPID AND GO TO THE BATHROOM.

This is why you should die, your just causing everyone more pain by staying alive.

Nothing is worth living for, your boyfriend could always date one of the preps and be 1000 times happier than he is now.

And you sister, she don't give a shit about you, she left you here. She doesn't care what happens to you, she didn't even visit you in the hospital.

The voices in my head made sense.

Nobody cares anymore.

They kept kicking and punching me and I just sat there and cried, there's nothing I can do I'm too weak to move it even hurts when I cry.

''Please stop.'' I whispered while shaking 

Stupid.

Ugly.

Whore.

Fatass.

Weird ass.

Worthless piece of shit.

"Get out of my way you slut."

These words kept repeating in my head,someone's screaming at me.

''STOPPPPPP PLEASE STOP.'' I kept on screaming 

I saw this girl run away because I guess they saw I was having a panic attack.

I sat there, shaking while singing a song sister used to sing.

Never again
the smell of smoke it fills your lungs
never again
choking on the fear of darkness falls
never to be held, never to be free
never hear what they say and never fall for me
one last kiss to satiate
ten thousand times is not enough
closing thine eyes
lost in crimson
trapped in all i despise
it's fucking broken
i never stop hearing the cries

i found my savior in these shards of shattered glass
i am an exit to the blackness this is my last hymn
to the fallen not again to touch the sky
a suicide not lullaby

 I kept on singing,not caring who the fuck heard me.

I got up, walked to the bathroom sink and looked in the mirror, who was this girl I saw I didn't recognize her at all. She looked like a total stranger, a completely different person.

This person disgusted me in every single shape and form.

I started to cry because I realized this person is me.

Without hesitation, I punched the mirror in front of me. I couldn't stand looking at this person I have become.

I quickly collapsed onto the floor bursting in tears, not caring that my knuckles are bleeding and It hurt so fucking much.

Why do I have to be that crazy emo bitch who is always getting herself into shit that she can't handle.

I took a piece of glass and stared at it. Thinking of many ways I could possibly kill myself.

No one would find me because people hardly go into the bathroom in the basement of the school.

I smiled at the fact that no one is looking for me, perfect. I thought

I took the sharp piece of glass and happily spelled out the word ''worthless'' on my arm. I needed to be reminded that i'm nothing so here's a reminder.

I wondered what else I should paint onto my canvas I called my arm.

How about a reminder of how much of a whore I am. I smiled

I slowly pressed the lifeless piece of brittle reflective glass into my skin, making sure to press into my skin deep enough to internally scar me.

I watched as the blood happily made its way to a puddle of blood on the cold pavement.

I was soo proud of what I have done, I sat there smiling at the pool of blood that continued to grow in size every minute.

Afterwards, I decided to draw 40 lines onto my canvas. I kinda ran out of space so I had to go with my back up canvas, my legs.

I decided to roll up my pants and start painting from my ankles, I started to paint hearts and stars until I got extremely weak.

I smiled, Its finally happening.

I guess you have succeeded,congratulations.

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Hey guys I hope you liked this chapter. I was gonna update yesterday but since it was my birthday I was pretty busy, but I updated today so... yeah

Please keep on voting,commenting,and sharing this story because I really appreciate every single read, vote, and share.

I will not be updating again this week because of school and personal issues but I promise I will have another update soon.

bai my little sunflowers <3

-midnight329