love me or lose me ~svt ff

part 2

I stopped by the practice room to visit Mingyu, I brought enough lunch for all of them. It took me awhile to make it all but it turned out well and I hope they like it. I go in and I can hear them laughing and yelling, I go into the room and see them all messing around. Dino noticed me first and jumped to my side.
"NOONA! You're here!" he hugged me and then took the bags out of my hands. He carried them over to a table. They all came over to say hi.
"Jia-shi look how big you've gotten!" Seungcheol touches my stomach and laughs.
"Sleepy is growing fast. Very restless too." Mingyu comes over and hooks his arm around my waist and kisses my forehead.
"Ah I feel like you guys get more attention from my wife than I do." I giggle and then hug him, when I do I feel a kick from sleepy and jump back.
"Did you feel that too?!? She just kicked!" I say excitedly. "she loves her father."
"Jia brought lunch for us why don't we eat?" Wonwoo said and everyone was happy.
Its nice to spend time with them, they've become like a second family to me.
"Ah so Noona have you decided what you'll name sleepy yet?" Seungkwan asks, his mouth slightly full.
"No Mingyu hasn't given me and ideas yet." I say and then stick my tongue out at him. He flicks my forehead gently.
"I want her to have the perfect name so I'm still thinking." he says, he pats my head.
"Wow you two are so cute together, I'm jealous." Minghao says and then takes a big bite.
"She's absolutely gorgeous I know, gosh I can't help but stop and think how did I get so lucky? She's kind, can cook, and has a beautiful voice." Mingyu says, I whack his arm.
"Hey don't tell them that!" I say and he chuckles.
"Ooo I wanna hear her sing." Jeonghan says, all of them nod and agree.
"Ah I really can't that's too embarrassing."
"Joshua go grab your guitar, trust me you'll be amazed." Joshua jumps up and grabs his guitar and then sits down on a chair. Mingyu stands and then helps me up.
"You can do it, you've got an amazing voice don't be shy." he caresses my face and kisses my forehead. I take a deep breath.
"I know don't wanna cry pretty well if you wanna play that." Joshua nods and then begins.

After I finish a bit of the song all of them start clapping and cheering me on.
"Woah you're incredible. You should debut!" I shake my head.
"You guys are too nice, plus it would be hard to debut since I'm pregnant." I say and then chuckle. I was now 4 months pregnant and she was really starting to pop out.
"When will you guys have the wedding?" DK asks, others seem curious as well.
"Not until after sleepy is out, my grandma says to wait so I can look my best in my dress."
After they all finished eating Mingyu walked me out the door.
"Jia thank you for everything." He hugged me and then gave me a gentle kiss on the lips. I wanted to savor his sweet taste, his warmth. He was my safe place.
"Thank you Mingyu you've helped me so much. I should get back home now. Call me when you're done with practice, okay?" he smiles and nods.
"Of course love. Get home safely and tell grandma hello for me."
"I will, bye bye." I wave to him and then make my way to the bus stop.
Life seems to be getting better and better, soon I'll have a daughter and I'll be married to the man I love and nothing could ever be better. I took out my phone and called Jinhee.
"Hello? Jinhee, would you like to meet up at a cafe? ... Mmm Hmm... okay perfect I'll see you there."
I sat inside the cat cafe petting a pretty little simese. In comes Jinhee, she looks incredible as always.
"Unnie! Look at how big your stomach has gotten. Woah I just wanna touch it." I laugh.
"Hi Jinhee, sometimes sleepy likes to kick maybe you'll get lucky and she'll kick for you." She extended her hand to my stomach and without hesitation sleepy gave her a good kick. "She only does that to people she likes."
"Daebak, ah I'm so excited for her to get out of there I can't wait to meet her!" Jinhee processed to rub my tummy.
We both ordered drinks and then talked about how we were doing.
"So who's the new guy??" I sat raising an eyebrow.
"W-what I have no  clue what you're talking about."
"I stalk your sns don't try and lie to me."
"Ah okay okay well I met him at the cafe, ah he's so good looking. I mean he's no idol like you've got but he's still sweet."
"I'm happy for you, but tell him if he hurts my friend I'll beat him up!" Jinhee laughs, I smile at her. Things feel normal right now.
After probably another good hour of us talking we finally part ways and head on home. As I ride the bus I can't help but think about planning the wedding. It's all so exciting for me. Of course grandma will be holding sleepy for me. It'll be such a lovely time.
"Ah I like it." I say as I walk the rest of the way home. I place my hand on my stomach and rub it.
"Sleepy I'm so glad you're going to be apart of my life. I promise you mom will take very good care of you." I often talk to sleepy, so she'll know that I love her.
I climb up the stairs and open the door to our house.
"Grandma I'm home!" I say slipping off my shoes. No response. "Grandma?" I hurry into the living room expecting her to maybe be asleep on the couch. She's not there. I look in the kitchen and peek in the bathroom, both places she's not. Finally when I go into her room I find her. She's collapsed on the ground, face pale.
"Grandma!" I rush to her side and drop to my knees. I pick up her head and lay it in my lap, quickly I dial 119. "Please help my grandma collapsed and is unconscious!" I sob.
What feels like forever they ambulance finally arrives to take her away.

I sat with my head in my hands, sobbing. Sleepy could feel that I was distressed and so was she. I waited and waited to get news on my grandma and then finally a doctor came and I jumped up.
"It's best if you sit down, no need to put strain on the baby." Slowly I sank back into my chair. The doctor crouched down in front of me and looked up, his eyes were sad and that's when I knew.
"The cancer has gotten more aggressive, her organs are beginning to shut down." I couldn't help but cry. "Miss Park Jia-shi it's probably best if you go see her." I continued to sob and then nodded, he helped me up and guided me to a room. There she was, her face was so pale and lifeless. They had oxygen strapped to her to help her breath, it seemed as if she didn't have any strength left in her to fight. I went to her side and grabbed her hand. Her eyes slowly opened.
"Ah my little Jia, I'm sorry to trouble you like this." I cried, tears streaming down my face.
"No grandma don't be sorry it's not your fault." I squeeze her hand, my heart felt like it was breaking all over again.
"You'll be okay, you have your baby and Mingyu now to take care of you. Don't forget that I'll always be with you no matter what." I nodded and wiped away tears. My phone began to ring and I pulled it out to see it was Mingyu.
"Hello.." my voice was shaky.
"What's wrong?"
"It's grandma. Mingyu I need to tell you something, we're at the hospital."
"I'll be right there." and then the line went silent.
Mingyu came into the room his eyes full of worry. I looked at him tears in my eyes and he took two steps and then I was in his arms. He was the only thing holding me together at this point. We step out of the room for a moment so I can talk to him.
"She's sick, it's cancer and the doctors say she doesn't have much longer." I cried and cried, Mingyu pulled me into his embrace again stroking my hair. I could feel his body tremble.

5 days later grandma passed. She went quietly and peacefully. There wasn't a funeral only because I knew grandma didn't want one. Mingyu stayed by my side the whole time, holding me and comforting me. I knew he wanted to cry as well but he never did. I would wake up and expect grandma to be in the kitchen getting a cup of tea. She wasn't there. I would come home hoping to see her sitting on the couch. She wasn't there either. I'd go into her room and it felt so cold, it was lacking her warmth and smile. I went on normally with my days. Going to work, take lunches to Mingyu every once in awhile when I wasn't busy. Spend time with Jinhee. I tried so hard to keep everything normal. I was now at the point 5 months pregnant and everything was going well.
It was at night when I was alone that I cried. My heart was shattered to tiny bits and pieces, it ached. I could feel sleepy cry as well, sad she never got to meet her grandma. Sad for me. The pain was at times unbearable, the only thing that helped numb it was Mingyu.
He would hold me close to him and talk about things we'll get to do together as a family, telling me about our happy future. It was the only thing that gave me hope.
If it weren't for Mingyu and sleepy I'd be lost and wandering without a purpose. They helped ease my pain, the pushed me to go on and keep trying. I could feel grandma, she would sit next to me and I could feel her heat radiating. Maybe it was just my imagination but I could still feel her even though I couldn't see her.
There was a knock at the door and I got up to answer it.
"Mingyu, hi." my voice is quiet, he steps in and soon his arms are wrapped around me and I'm enveloped in his heat. Once he let me go I noticed he had a suitcase. "What's that for?" I ask.
"I want to be by your side at all times, it's not good for you to sit in here by yourself." I felt a bit of a weight lift off my shoulders. I hated being alone, most times I craved his touch when I couldn't have it. Now I'd always have him next to me. I got on my tip toes, wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him. At first it was soft but the it sooner grew deeper. We both needed each other, it was like he couldn't get enough of me. Not wanting to break away, this sweet taste was pure ecstasy. He made my knees weak and my heart race.
Just as things got more intense there was the doorbell. We both jumped back flustered, he cleared his throat and fix his shirt. I combed through my hair messily trying to make myself presentable. He went and answered the door, it was Seungcheol.
"Ah Hyung why are you here?" Mingyu asks, Seungcheol chuckles.
"Did I interrupt something? I just want to bring by this for you, while Mingyu is a great cook but nothing beats my moms kimchi." he hands Mingyu a box. Ah kimchi sounds so good right now.
"Thanks Hyung. I appreciate it."
"Ah that's perfect I've been craving it!" I say and go over and swipe the box out of Mingyu's hands. Seungcheol laughs.
"Take care of him for us Jia! I'm trusting you." He says and then leaves. I've already started eating away at the food, it was so good.
"THIS IS AMAZING!" I give a big sigh of approval. Mingyu smiles and then ruffles my hair.
"I'm glad you like it dear." he says and then places a kiss on my forehead. Ah his forehead kisses were always so tender and sweet. "What do you think of Kim Sumi?" I looked up at him and smiled.
"Sounds perfect."
My life was coming together, I felt like I could do anything with Mingyu's help. He made life better.