Tay-Tay my Bro:
Yo :">
Me:
Sup?
Tay-Tay my Bro:
Nothing. xD You?
Me:
Same. o_O
Tay-Tay my Bro:
Ok. Ask me
Ugh, not again. Everyday, always, never-ending, he'll never stop.
Don't you ever feel like one person just annoys you so bad and won't leave you alone?
Here's the sitch, Taylor and I have been best friends for three years now but only through text is when we talk. Don't get me wrong, I know who he is in person. He is my classmate, after all. But like some schools, our's has cliques. He's one of the jocks, and I'm in the popular girl group who don't like dresses or senseless drama. The people I hang with are fairly popular -not to brag- but we don't shake pom-poms in your face or gossip or wear short skirts or hold a conversation of the colour of our fingernails. The people I hangout with love adventure: when we aren't studying we like to go on roadtrips, camps and lazer tag hangouts. We love traveling. So we only text .
He started texting me back in freshman when he decided it would be cool to befriend the newbie, me. I actually never noticed him until he texted me. To be honest, I'd always forget he was my classmate. As the years past, we grew to be besties. Text besties. I learned how weird he actually is and how he actually wants to be a doctor. He learned that I hate drama and can't stand how girls are always in it.
Yeah, he understands me and all but I have expectations too other than someone just understanding me. Yeah, he was there for me during my difficult times. Yeah, he stood by me through everything but I just feel like our friendship is plain old boring.
Every single day, it's "ask me, ask me, ask me.." blah blah blah. To be honest I don't know anything that I want to ask you and get to know about you. I think I know I everything I want to know about him. Same routine everyday it's tiring. Nothing new.
So I did something he would expect.
Me:
Don't you ever get tired of talking to me???
Tay-Tay my Bro:
No, why? You?
Me:
It's been awesome being your best friend, bro. But I think I need a break. :) Love ya dude. I'm not mad, I just need.... space? Talk to you soon.
Tay-Tay my Bro:
What? Why? What did I do? Whatever I did, I'm sorry. :'( Just please answer.
I sighed, staring at my phone. It hurts to know I'm hurting him but I know that this will help him too, to not get too attached. To be able to learn more and explore the world, not having his face glued to an electronic device always everyday.
Like, maybe this could help him to find someone else as a best friend.
I just don't think I'm the right person for that job.
* * *
It's been a month since I last talked to him and all that's happening in school are the stares I'm getting everytime I pass by him in the halls. Sometimes they're glares. I really just hope he'll find perfect company soon enough.
It's been a month since I met Liz, a month since I lost Taylor, a month since my senior year changed.
I let him go for him to find someine better than me which is something I still am hoping to happen and am proud of. But then the thing is yeah, it's been a long time since I talked to my former best friend, my brother. It was different, no doubt. And it took some time getting used but it would be for the better.
Yeah I miss him but I know that my decision could help him.
Yeah, I know.
It's bitter sweet.
