Holding on

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Jaelyn

My mother named me Jaelyn which means survivor little did she know I would be adressed as it one day.It hurts sometimes like a lot. Knowing that my life can never be the same again, everyday receiving disgusted and pity looks. I don't have any mirrors around my house.You ask why!? That is because I couldn't bear to look at myself anymore seeing my face just brings back the incident which costed me my precious thing .
Sometimes I feel like letting go completely, ending this for once and for all .

A day in my life starts with my little brother waking me up with his screaming to not wanting to go school. Joel "Jo"a cute chubby four year old with mum's brown hair and dad's blue eyes might seem like a little angel to but I assure you he's not.

So after doing my daily morning rituals I climb down the stairs to see a havoc in our kitchen."Goodmoring Mr and Mr's Parker,"I greet sitting down on the kitchen counter.Since I was a kid somehow I was used to adressing them by "Mr and Ms Parker".

Jo was also sitting on the counter eating a bowl of cereal without milk. Seeing that the cereal tasted like cardboard I could never understand how he could even swallow it. I also make myself a bowl of fruit loops, receiving two rushed good mornings from mum and dad, who again as always were running late for work now trying to make up for it cooking the breakfast in a hurry while trying get all the lunches packed.

A strict rule which mum and dad emphasized on was to never allow their children to eat nasty cafeteria food, for which I was quite thankful.
My parents were typical middle-aged parents. Both mum and dad had good genes and were quite the heartbreakers in their time.

"Would you be a darling and drop of your little brother to school",mum ask's now finally done packing lunches. "Mum!? This is the third time this week I've been stuck with this little brat this is the last time I'm dropping him",I whine
"Darling I'm sorry but you know how stressful it's been this week with the extra late night shifts"she replies,
"Okay but this is the last time,"I finally agree and pick my bag,stuffing lunch in it and getting my car keys.
"Comeon kid hurry up we need to get going, Im gonna go wait for you in the car", I yell at jo and with that I'm out the door.