skater & I

Chapter 6

The look on his face was sad yet confused and I felt bad . He had now put his hands on my shoulders and the grip was getting tighter . I was getting scared know. I saw what happened in school and I didn't want what happened to the locker to happen to me.

I looked down at my feet but I was soon looking back up again. Blakes hand was now on my chin forcing me to look at him in the eyes. I had never noticed how deep blue his eyes were. He no longer had a smile on his face but I could tell he was biting his lip.my heart was know beating really hard, it fell like it was going to come out go my chest.

"Taylor why not?" He asked again

I though about this for a seconds , I didn't have a reason why I couldent kiss him or why he couldent kiss me. I wasent ready for it , it was a surprise . I Need more thinking time , to understand but I couldent just tell him that. So I just went with what came in my mind

"I don't know Blake But I think I need to go back home"

"I will walk you back"

I nod and start to walk back home. The journey was silent and really awkward, I think he tryed to make conversation but it didt work well. It was getting dark and cold but the journey back home seemed to be shorter then what it was to get there.

I walked up to my house and Blake was still behind me. I stopped and turned around , facing him for the first time sice we started walking back

"Well thanks Blake , I had fun " I smiled

"We could of had more fun" he smiled back but a bit more cheeky

" bye Blake "

"Bye Taylor , will I see you tommorow "

"Well if you turn up to school , then yey"

"Ooh that might be a hard one , I don't like that place"

"Blake bye" and I turned around and and walked to the door opening it and closing it.

I walk in to see my mum pacing back and forth in the living room "Taylor is that you?" She came running to me opened arms and hugged me. I couldn't breath , need air but she finely let go. "We're have you been, it been 3 hours since you left to say hi to Blake and you wasent outside and and..." I grab her by the shoulders and sit her down cause she looked pale and looked as if she was going to faint.

" mum it's ok , I just went on a walk with Blake and we just had a bit of a chat" she started to relax a bit more and her normal pink/red came back to her face . I really didn't know that she would get that worried about that, I couldent of been 3 hours , it only felt like an hour.

I decide to leave her to relax and carm down while I go get a bath cause that is alway the best place to think about things like this . I run upstairs and and go in to the bath room locking the door behind me . I never really told u about my mum or her boyfriend/fiancé. He works all day So I hardly see him, when I get up in the morning he's still sleeping and when I go to sleep at night he's still workings.i don't know what his job is but I don't really know him that well, we haven't really bonded . IV been out with him a few times when we had a meal with my mum or if we go on a trip but all I really know about him is that he's alway really tired. So yey I don't think I will call him a dad , he hasent really put any effort in to it so I don't bother with him.

The bath is run and I jump in, wash my hair and shave my legs and armpits. IV never like my body altogether. I'm not skinny and I'm not normal weight , I would say I'm over weight . My mum feeds me a lot but I can't blame it on her though , it my fault for eating it. I like shopping for clothes but I alway hide my size when I pick items up , manly from Lisa and jane. They have like size 0 and 8 , sometimes I wonder why they even hang around with me.

I think that's why I was shocked when Blake tryed to kiss me, I wouldn't of even think he would like me because of my size and that's defo why I didt want him to try pick me up just incase he couldent. I would of gone really red in the face but he was strong and I don't think he really cared.

I always had a view on boys. How they will always like skinny girls with big boobs and toned bums , with a tan and blond hair. I don't know why , I just have. I think it's because IV never really had any relationships with boys . IV always be uncomfy around boys just in case they said something to me that would hurt my feelings and make every boy laugh at me.

I jump out of the bath cause I see that my legs are going really red cause the bath is hot and my feet and hands are starting to look old. I always get out when I start getting wrinkles , I think it mean that my skin has had anoth water and it has well shrunk in to my skin.

I grab a towel and rap it around my self and a smaller towel to rap around my hair. I unlock the door feeling the cold air hitting me strait away , walking in to my room and shut my door behind me. I close blinds , so no one can peak in while I get changed in to my pjs. I basically grab a black vest top and some material shorts but the pj ones ovs. I get really hot at night so that's why I wear short stuff , eve tho I hate my legs , no one is going to see them while I sleep but when I go to a sleep over I wear longer pant. I don't even think Lisa has seen my legs . I also love to wear fluffy socks , in bed and to just walk around the house cause they are so comfy and sometimes my toes get cold.

I get in bed and wrap a blanket around my shoulders . I grab my diary from down the side of my bed and sit up crossing my legs so I can write.

Hi katniss,

You will never guess what happened today. I went on a walk with Blake . Yep Blake the new boy, his mum is the tailer who is designing my mums dresses for the wedding. It's sort of weird cause it means he's going to be spending time at are house . We was looking at clouds and he said I wasent very creative , well he didt say it like that but that's what he was getting at. Because he could see pictures with the clouds but all I could see was Cotten candy .

But that's not the best part well I don't know weather it good or bad , I haven't really thought about it. Let's just say he tryed to kiss me. I said tryed cause he didt actually kiss me, I stoped him but I don't know why. He seems sad and confused about it tho and I felt really bad for him . It was a bit silent after that but we ended up talking again at the end of the trip/walk we went on so yey , it's been a bit of a full day

Taylor xox

I decide to go to sleep and leave the Blake problem (Well I think it's a problem or is it) for tomorrow.

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hey can some one please help me out , I really want to put pictures on of the characters on here . do any of you know how to , would mean a lot xx

Sorry about the late update , been reading though some book on here , just to see how they write . IV decided that I'm not the best of writers but I'm going to see if I can improve on anything , please tell me about anything on what I need to improve on cause I see that a lot of u don't like this book as your not very active with comments and votes , so I'm really wanting to improve on that .

Would it be better if I talk to you at the bottom abit or not.

Or updated quicker

Or longer chapter

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