The last thing I would want is for you to walk away. But every little word you say is like a rope tieing tighter on my neck. You kill me softly but sweetly. The last thing I would want is for you to ignore me like I was nothing like I never mattered its easy to do so but so hard for me to understand. The last thing I would want is for you to find someone way better than me. Perhaps a guy that your mom would love a guy that you wouldn't be afraid to hold hands with and kiss in public something you could easily show off happily with a smile on your face. Someone who doesn't get upset at the thought of losing you cause they know it would never happen. Or the second someone says something you could happily say yes were together. The last thing I would want is to say to much to lose you. My brain overloads with the little things. "One thing will mess up so keep your mouth shut" that sentence runs through my head all the time around you. The last thing I would want is to break up all that we have. Just to able to kiss you is a blessing and a curse cause I always want more. But I know I cant have it for so long. To hug you is a new beginning that I don't want to ever end. To even be near you is a feeling of home. Where I can say anything and not be afraid to open up. The feeling of nervousness getting closer to your face and your smile bringing me back down to earth in my time of sadness. The last thing I would want is to hear you say goodbye. Because to everyone goodbye is a new beginning but to me it wasn't a happy end. A goodbye is a stop to what we were and what we could have been. A goodbye is a part of me taken that nobody knew I had taken away. A goodbye is an ending of something meaningful and something I've been longing for a while now. A goodbye is something that will make me regret even starting with you. And I don't want to ever regret. Because with you, ive seen everything in a new and complete way. You've made me see myself better and not be afraid of who I am. You've made me see the little things in life and helped me happy again. But if you say goodbye everything will wash away and I don't think I would want to ever wake up again. So the last thing I would ever want is for you to leave so please don't go.
