Camp For Troubled Souls

Coming Home

What's going on? I asked myself. Something's not right. Why do I feel pain again? Then I found out the answer as I heard whispered voices and the beeping of machines. I had failed. I'm still alive and in a hospital. How did I get here? I surely thought I'd be dead right now. What did my parents see when they got home? Oh my god. What are my parents thinking, I thought to myself. I couldn't believe this was happening. I started to regain consciousness. My head started pounding like someone was hitting it with a hammer over and over again. Hopefully the hospital would put me on pain killers soon. Then my eyes started to open. I looked up and saw a bright white light. The light was so bright it stung my eyes and I had to look down again. Then I saw my wrists. White bandages were wrapped around my wrists and secured with tape. My left arm had a tube giving my body blood. They probably were giving me blood considering how much I lost during my almost suicide. The bed was comfortable and soft. I looked at the baby blue blanket wrapped around my legs when I heard a voice. When I looked next to me I saw a nurse. Brown hair and eyes, she looked young for a nurse.

"Hi, I'm Nicole, "she said. "You're so lucky to be alive after what happened to you. The doctor had to give you blood transfusions because you lost so much blood."

"How long have I been here?"

"3 days so far but you will probably stay longer so the doctor can check on you"

I looked out the door and saw my parents. I gulped as I prepared myself to talk to them again. What are they going to say to me?

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My parents walk in. I can see my mom has been crying but my dad has a serious face on.

"Adrianna, I don't know why you would go and do so stupid thing like this "my mom says.

"Mom do you understand I had no choice that things got too bad that this is what happened"

"There is nothing in life that could make you do this, no one forced you, and this is your fault!"

I can't believe my mom was doing this. She was yelling at me for choosing the only thing I could just to get out of this hell hole.

"Ok I'm sorry" was all I could say.

My mom stormed out of the room without looking back. My dad just looked at me for a second and followed my mother. Why didn't I die.....Then I fell asleep. Later the nurse came in and she said she had some good news for us. She said I was free to go home tonight. I did not want to go back. I'd have to go back home, back to school, back to my life. My parents seemed happy about this though. At least they wouldn't have to pay more hospital bills. That night was terrible. The nurse gave me my stuff. Before I left I saw the look she gave me. It was almost like she was sorry for me. I thanked the nurse, turned around and followed my parents to their car. I never realized how creepy the hospital actually looked. The plan white walls and the long piercing white lights from above. A part of me was happy to be leaving but another didn't want to set foot in my house. I finally reached the car and prepared for the long drive home. 10 minutes went by and neither of my parents said a word to me. I decided to listen to my iPod while we drove the rest of the way

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We finally arrived home. I didn't want to go into my room but I knew that it was the only way I could get away from my parents. As I passed the bathroom I smelled the bleach. Like a reminder of my failed attempt. I walked as fast as I could past the door and went into my room. I looked around trying to figure out if my parents had been in my room. Nothing look touched so I decided to go to sleep. I thought about taking a shower but remembering the bleach smell made my stomach turn. I decided to take one when I felt better. I slipped on my pajamas and crawled into bed. It took me forever to fall asleep but when I did it finally I felt complete peace.