Hi:) so this is a book I decided to write to rant about some struggles and the little joys in my (messed up) life:)
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Please bear with my crappy English, I just felt deep so I wrote this😂
In this new environment, I feel restricted, I can't be my true self, I have to act a certain way to seem more interesting, still ending up being cast aside. I'm forced to be with the same people at lunch everyday, even though I didn't like it, I wanted to run away. I didn't want to wake up every morning, knowing I had nothing to look forward to that day.
I miss the old times, even though going to school was stressful, I would look forward to recess, lunch breaks and the end of school everyday, because I knew someone would be at The Table. The Table we shared laughs, jokes, memes and studied together, even though not necessarily everyone were close friends, we all had one thing in common. No one aspired to be popular in any way, we just gathered at The Table everyday like it was a routine or a meeting point somehow, I don't remember who started it but I felt comfortable there nonetheless and I miss it...
I just wanna graduate as quickly as possible, get a stable source of income, then proceed on to fulfill my dreams during my free time. School is depressing, every single thing I do contributes to my future, if I screw up, my future might be ruined too. I can't pursue my interests without having to constantly worry about my studies.
Someday I just wanna leave this country, leave the stress behind, forget all my negative thoughts and travel the world with my closest friends, explore new exciting places, try new things, stay up late to have sentimental talks which might cause us to end up in tears or just simply messing around in the hotel room.
I just want to be free.
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^This basically sums up my thoughts, I'm glad a mutual on twitter relates too:') (also hope she doesn't mind me posting this here🙈)
