Tin Man & Scarecrow

no.3

Roy
today was off somehow.. i dont know how to explain it but it just was.
i went on my way to rehearsal and saw everyone sitting outside in the grass area.
i shrugged my shoulders and took a seat next to Seymour. i asked what was going on. biggest mistake of my life...

"s-someone is dead in there. one of our jitterbugs." his face was a pale shade of white. his hands were shaking and his eyes were bloodshot. he must've seen whoever had died.

"Seymour, what are you talking about who died?" i said grabbing his arm in an act of comfort.

"i was the first one here and so was Lee and Regan, they both went to the bathroom like usual and then i heard a loud scream so i went to go see if they were okay. i saw bloody shoe prints heading towards the door to leave. i immediately was scared to i went into the bathroom to check.-" before he could finish our director said in a monotone voice with his face just as pale as Seymours,
"guys this is a rough time for us and the family so we need everyone to go home and come back for rehearsal next week on wednesday." everyone began crying and getting up to leave. when i turned back to Seymour he was already in his car driving away.

i saw Aly getting up and heading to her car, i ran behind her and grabbed her arm.
"Aly, you must know whats going on, what happened?"

she began sobbing even more and had to sit down again. she then began explaining what had happened.

"me and Lee are fighting at the moment because i apparently pay no attention to her and thats total bull shit. if she wasnt mad at me right now none of this would've happened!" she wiped her tears with the back of her hand and my blood went cold.

was she saying Lee was the one who died?
i started shaking and crying.

"please tell me it wasn't Lee, Aly, please." i said through my tears and sobs.

she shook her head and began speaking quietly again. "they went to the bathroom, Lee and Regan, i was in the room right over playing cards with Ignes and Amber, i head a loud scream and a loud bang like a firework but it didnt echo. thats when i knew something bad had happened. i saw Seymour running into the bathroom and then loud sobs. Seymour came out and threwup. i slowly walked in and-" she sobbed even more she couldn't even talk between breaths.

i felt sad for her, something this bad to happen to someone so close to her.

someone so close to me...

"-im sorry," she took a deep breath, "i walked in and i saw Regan on the floor with a bullet hole in her left temple, someone shot her in the head, we don't know who it was." she sobbed even more.

"i just-just really cant be here right now i have to leave, bye Roy." she gave me a hug and then sped away in her car like nothing had happened.

i stood there, alone in the empty parking lot, telling myself

its your fault, you know who did this, you know who did this you sick bastard.

and i did know who did it. but i could never admit it to anyone...

my dirty, rotten, sickly secret.