“You’re worthless” she yelled at me. I couldn’t take this anymore. I was blind with rage and I couldn’t shake the feeling of being let down one to many times. I was not about to let her be the death of me. I had locked the door and was throwing all my things into my rucksack. She always did this. I was finished with taking it and just smiling. We had just moved to London and my step mum had always been the source of most of my pain. Telling me that my bands and friends were nothing and I shouldn’t really have them. My dad was downstairs. He never stuck up for me he just stayed out of all our arguments. So I had decided that this time I was leaving. She had gone one step too far this time. She had insulted my YouTubers.
That was the one thing that never failed to make me smile. The people that could make me laugh when all I felt like doing was breaking down and crying. I ran past her, I ran down the stairs and then ran out the door into the cold night. The rain falling around me concealing the tears that were beginning to flow down my face. I ran until I was out of breath and I had to stop. I caught my breath and then looked around. I had no idea where I was and I was wet through. I began to walk in a random direction. Hoping to find somewhere I could stay for the night maybe or at least some food. My YouTubers ran through my head I wondered what they were doing right now. Danisnotonfire and AmazingPhil. They made my day. Especially Phil. His blue eyes were so dreamy and his long floppy black hair made me smile. Still in deep thought I saw a Starbucks and walked inside. It was warm and I was still soaked. As I walked up to the counter everyone stared at me, tears still falling from my eyes. They wouldn’t stop no matter how much I tried. Suddenly I felt someone bump into me from behind.
“Oh my god Dan!” he yelped making me freeze. I could hear giggling also. I knew what Dan he was talking about because there was no way in a million years that I would mistake that voice for anything else. It was Phil’s and I knew it. My idols and not to mention fucking internet crush were stood behind me and I looked like a drowned rat with puffy red eyes. I couldn’t look at them so I just stood there frozen. Till I felt a strong soft hand tap my shoulder. My head then jerked to look at it, it was pail and then I knew it was Phil’s. “Sorry” he said quietly. Slowly I turned to body to face him. He was taller than I thought he would be. His black hair covering one of his eyes. Those deep blue eyes, shining like deep blue pools of clear water. “Don’t worry it’s okay” I smiled at him my wet hair dripping down my face. “Are you okay?” he asked me looking into my red eyes, still sore from crying. I looked down before answering him. “Yeah I’m fine” I lied, instantly regretting it. He took my hands in his bigger warm ones making me look up back into his eyes. His face had a very serious look on it. “I can tell you’re not. Tell me what’s wrong” He looked into my eyes with concern. Tears began to form in my eyes. Dan was stood next to us and had been quiet this whole time but now he spoke up. “I’m going to get drinks Phil why don’t you two find a table?”
“Thanks Dan” Phil said flashing his friend a smile then turning back to face me. Slowly slipping his arm around my waist he carefully guided me to an empty table in the corner of Starbucks. Sitting down I can feel the tears slipping out of my eyes as I begin to tell Phil what happened. He sits by me hugging me as I finish. Letting me cry into his warm chest surrounded by his secure arms. Dan comes back with our drinks and I sit up, Phil’s arms are still around my body making me feel safe. We sat there in silence as we drank. Though Dan and Phil kept looking at each other as if they were having a secret conversation. When we were done Phil looked down into my eyes. “Hey since you have nowhere to go do you want to stay with us?” He asked me my eyes widening with shock at what he had just said. AmazingPhil and Danisnotonfire were offering to let me stay at their house! I couldn’t speak so I just nodded my head not taking my eyes off Phil. A smile spread across his sweet face, creating a smile on my own. He took my hand and led my out of the shop. When we got to their apartment I was shaking from the cold. Phil lead me into their living room which looked just like it does in there videos. My eyes flickered over every piece of furnisher. All of it where it should be. Slowly I sat down on their black sofa as Phil looked at me, his eyes filled with concern. At that moment Dan came in with a soft blanket and one of Phil’s jumpers. He handed them to me and instantly I slipped into Phil’s jumper, to which Phil smiled.
“Phil?” I asked, not quite believing what I was about to ask him.
“Yeah?” he said back smiling down at me as Dan walked off.
“Will you sit with me and keep me warm?” I said blushing and looking down slightly.
He smiled “Yes of course I will” and clambered onto the sofa with me putting the blanket over us both and wrapping his arms around me and pulling me close to him. My head instantly went to his chest where I felt comfortable. Just being with Phil, who I had had a crush on for over 3 years now made me smile. It made me want to laugh. It was like I was living out some old fan fiction. It was crazy. But then my life hadn’t ever been normal. At some point I must have fallen asleep as the next thing I knew I was carefully being put into Phil’s bed. Before I fell back asleep I could have sworn I felt my forehead being kissed, and Phil whispering “Goodnight love.”
When I woke I was groggy and I had to force myself not to go back to sleep as I could feel the sunlight on my skin. My mind traced back to yesterday and I sat up with a sudden jolt. I looked around. I was in Phil’s room and there were some cloths on his chair with a small slip of paper on it. Swinging my legs around I got out of his warm bed and went over to the chair. The slip said “good morning Eve. These are my smallest cloths and should fit youJ. We can go and get your things whenever you want but until then hereJ. P.s you can keep these xxx” I could feel the large grin on my face as I read the paper. It was in Phil’s beautiful handwriting that I had seen in the radio shows. I quickly slipped into the cloths. They were warm and soft, slightly big, but felt nice. After washing my face I poked my head around the bedroom door looking down the corridor. I could hear Dan talking softly and Phil then replying slightly louder. Not wanting to snoop on their conversation I loudly walked down towards them. They stopped talking when they heard me. As I turned the corner they were both stood in his pyjamas Phil had a blush covering his face and Dan was smiling down at me. “Breakfast?” he asked getting a bowl down from the cupboard.
“Yes please” I giggled still looking at Phil. He walked over to me, embracing me in his strong arms.
“Sleep well?” he whispered in my ear making my face grow hot.
“Yes thanks” I whispered back. We stood like that till Dan tapped Phil on the back and he pulled away. Dan handed me my food and we walked to the living room to eat. While Dan sat watching the TV me and Phil sat at the table. I giggled at the program and each time Phil would look at me and smile. As Dan walked past us to put his bowl away he mumbled “just tell her dude it obvious” Phil then turned bright red.
“What’s obvious?” I asked seeing the redness of Phil’s normally pail cheek.
“Um I…….I well…. The thing is” Phil stumbled over his words pausing, he stood up and motioned for me to the same. I stood and walked around the table so I was stood in front of him. He then pulled me into a hug. Leaning down to speak in my ear as my head rested agenized his chest. Suddenly I didn’t want to know what he had to say, scared of what it might be.
“I hate being small you know….” I said quietly but just loud enough so he could hear.
“Well there is a benefit to it” he said the smile evident in his voice.
“Yeah? What’s that?”I smiled my head still on his chest.
“You can hear my heart when we hug, which beats only for you.” He smiled.
I gasped looking up at him. His cheeks were red and a smile was spread across his face as he looked down at me.
“What I’m trying to say is that I love you Eve.” He said his blue eyes full of truth. Before I knew what I was doing I stood on my tiptoes and kissed him quickly on the lips. It was sweet and short. It made me smile. The man that I had loved for so long now loved me back. He was looking down at me with a shocked look on his perfect face.
“What I was trying to say is that I love you too” I smiled mimicking his words from only moments earlier. He then lent down, with a smile on his face and kissed me. This time for longer. We only stopped when we heard a cough from behind us. Dan was stood there grinning from ear to ear.
“Get in there Phil!” he said laughing at us blushing. His eyes suddenly became serious for a split second as he smiled and said “welcome to the family Eve.”
A/N- if you could be amazing and comment telling me what you thing i would appretiate it and give me feedback :) thank you for reading.
