Broken. ~ Sequel to 'Is this love?' A Levi Jones story. { ON HOLD }

Crying.

"Rachelle? Oh my goodness are you okay?" I opened my eyes to see mom standing over me.
"Yeah." I sat up not caring about the pain anymore.
"Why are you outside?" I looked around to see I fell asleep on the porch.
"It's nothing." I sighed.
"Let me help you up." She smiled.
"Thanks." She pulled me up with my free hand.
"R?" Noel ran up to me.
"Drew called me saying Levi came home crying in the middle of the night last night. Are you okay?"  She helped me walk inside.
"Yeah I'm fine."
"No you're not." She glared.
"I told him it hurts."
"What hurts?" Emily asked walking into the living room.
"The memories of me and him." I sighed.
"Does it?" Noel asked sitting me on the couch.
"Kind of. But not because I'm remembering him. I'm scared." My eyes started watering. It's like all I do is cry these days.
"Scared of what?" Emily held my hand.
"Falling in love all over again."
They didn't say anything.
"I'm so fucking scared."
"It's okay to be scared. Love is scary. But you've done it before, you can do it again." Noel smiled.
"It's not that. It's the fact that if I fall in love with him again, I know it'll hurt even worse than before when I remember the reason we broke up. When I remember the actual reason!"
"Lets do something today!" Emily smiled.
"Yeah!"
"But I can barely walk. And I only have one useful arm." I laughed.
"Lets go for a walk. I can push you on the wheelchair!" Noel laughed.
"Okay."
Emily rolled the wheelchair over helping me get in it.
"Thanks guys."
"Anything for you R."
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"Lets go see the skate park." Emily smiled.
"Yeah okay." We've been walking for about 10 minutes already.
"Go faster Noel!" I laughed throwing my arm in the air.
She was skating on her board and pushing me at the same time.
"I'm trying!"
"Can we scream?" Emily asked smiling big.
"It'll hurt, but hell yeah!" I smiled.
"What do we scream?" Noel asked.
"Fuck the government?" I started laughing.
"Yes!" Emily and Noel both laughed.
"Ready...1...2...3."
"FUCK THE GOVERNMENT!!"
We all started laughing even louder than before. And the people on the sidewalk started staring at us, some were even laughing.
"Yeah! Fuck the government!" We stopped turning to see Drew laughing at us, with Levi standing behind him.
"What are you guys doing here?" I asked dropping my smile.
"We wanted to go for a skate." Drew smiled lightly.
"Well you might as well join us!" I smiled. I love Drew like a brother, I can't act mad around him, it's impossible.
"Here, Noel, let me take over." He grabbed my chair and started pushing.
"Shit. You're going to make me fall out!" I grabbed on to the side.
"You'll be fine!" He laughed.
Once we finally made it to the skate park he slowed down.
"There you two are!" Noel laughed.
"He almost fucking killed me." I rolled my eyes smiling.
"We can tell."
"Shut up! That was fun!" Drew smiled.
"Just go skate." I rolled myself over to the benches.
"Rachelle?" Levi walked up holding his board.
"Yeah?" I just kept looking straight.
"Can we talk? About last night?"
"Sure."
"I'm sorry for running out." He paused.
"It's okay. I liked sleeping on the porch crying." I rolled my eyes.
"Can you please stop making this so damn hard!?" He groaned.
"I'm making this hard for you!? You're making it hard for me!" I spat.
"What?"
"You're making it hard for me not to fall in love with you all over again!" I rolled my chair away getting stuck on a rock.
"Fuck!" I stood up.
"Rachelle!" Emily ran over to me.
"Get back in your chair!"
"No. I'm tired of this fucking chair! I'm tired of not remembering everything! I'm tired of not knowing how much I fucking loved Levi! I'm just so damn tired!" I cried.
"Ow" I grabbed my head.
"Not again." I groaned.
•
*Flashback*
"Okay here are the drinks." Tris said handing them out.
"Thanks Tris!" I said grabbing my water.
"That looks really good Rachelle!" Nate laughed.
"Shut up." I said trying to hide my smile.

After the boys had 'Many' drinks they decided to go dance, or at least try to dance with a bunch of girls. 
"Wanna dance?" I turned to see a boy probably a couple years older than me.
"No thank you." I turned back around to see Levi dancing with a girl that barely had any clothes on.
Well I can't say I'm not jealous.
"Come on! Have some fun!" The boy said getting closer.
"I'm good." I looked to see him staring at me.
"Dance with me." His face went stern. He grabbed my waist hard. I'll most likely have a bruise in the morning. I tried pushing him away but he was to strong.
"She said No." Levi said from behind me.
"Oh yeah. And what are you going to do about it?" The boy said looking at Levi.
"This." He said punching him in face hard. Holy crap that was hot. Holy crap Levi just punched someone in the face!
"Levi!" I hurried and grabbed him before the boy could punch him back.
"Asshole." The boy said walking away.
"Are you okay?" Levi asked looking me up and down.
"Yeah I'm fine! Are you okay?" I asked grabbing his hand to check it.
"I'm fine." He said.
"Thank you." I smiled at him.
"It's nothing. I just got a little jealous seeing him touch you." He said. WHAT? He got jealous? Crap he's drunk.
"Jealous?" I asked.
"Yeah." He said getting closer to me. What is he doing?
"Levi what are you doing?" I asked.
"Can I kiss you?" He asked. Oh my god.
"Levi you're drunk." I said.
"I don't have to be drunk to know how much I want to kiss you." He inched his face closer to mine cupping my face with his hand.
He gorgeous blue eyes were looking right into my blue eyes. I felt his breath against my lips.
"Levi I do-" before I could finish his lips were on mine. I kissed him back tasting the alcohol which snapped me back into reality. I pulled away looking at his face. He looked hurt.
"I'm sorry Levi. It's just you're drunk, you don't know what you're doing, and you won't even remember this in the morning. But I will, and I don't know if I can deal with that." I said tears forming in my eyes. He has no clue how much I've wanted to kiss him. Yet when it finally happens he won't remember. 
"I understand." He said walking away.
"Where are you going?" I asked grabbing his hand.
"Back to the boys." He said with a sad expression.
"Oh okay."
"Levi?" He stopped and turned to look at me.
"Yeah?" He asked. I pecked his lips.
"Thanks again." I smiled.
"No problem." He smiled back showing his beautiful white teeth.
He turned back around to walk back to the dance floor. What a great night.

It's been 4 hours since we got here and I'm ready to go home.
"Hey boys?" I walked up to them with a whole bunch of girls. They all had one besides the boys with girlfriends and Levi, who was standing with Connor talking to him.
"Yeah?" Austin asked.
"Who is that?"  The girl Austin was standing next too asked. Does she want me to smack her? Cause I will.
"I want to go home." I said ignoring the girl.
"Oh okay. Do you want us to go with you?" He asked.
"No. You guys stay and have fun." I said turning around.
"Wait!" James said. He was still sober since he doesn't like to drink a lot like the other boys.
"Take Levi with you. He doesn't look to good." James said pointed to Levi. He was right. Levi must have drunk a little more since the... kiss..... happened.
"Okay" I said grabbing ahold of Levi's arm.
"Lets get you home Levi." He smiled at me.
"You're beautiful Rachelle." He giggled.
"Thank you Levi." I laughed.
I wrapped my arm around his waist to keep him up as he threw his arm around my shoulder.

Once we finally got home from that horrible walk back to the apartment I walked Levi up the stairs.
"Be careful Levi!" I said as he keeps tripping on each step.
"Sorry." He said grabbing onto my hand.
"Just take one step at a time." I said watching to make sure he doesn't miss a step.
Once we finally got to the top we walked to his room.
"Take your shirt and shoes off." I said laying him on his bed and walking to his drawer to get another shirt.
"Okay." He mumbled.
I turned around to see him taking his pants off.
"Levi!" I yelped turning back around.
"Oh my God What!?" He screamed looking around everywhere.
"Just hurry and get into the bed!" I said covering my eyes and throwing him his shirt. Once he was finally in the bed I uncovered my eyes to look at him.
"Thank you Rachelle." He said gabbing my hand.
"You're welcome Levi." I smiled.
"I love you." He mumbled.
"I love you too." I whispered kissing his forehead.
"Goodnight Lev." I said even though he was already sound asleep.

I walked into my room and changed into pajamas. After getting in the bed it took me forever to finally fall asleep. All I could think about was Levi kissing me. And how he doesn't even know he did.
*End of Flashback*
•
I groaned opening my eyes.
"Oh thank god!" I looked over to see Noel, Emily, Drew, and Levi all standing over me.
"What happened?" I asked noticing we were back home.
"You passed out. Are you okay?" Emily asked.
"Yeah it was just..." I paused looking at Levi.
"Nothing. I guess I just need some food." I sighed.

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A/N: I think I'm gonna start updating just once a week if that's alright with you guys. It's just hard writing chapters to this and trying to do school work every night.💖