The day you left was a sunny yet a dark day with flowers that were bloomed yet looked wither, it was the day I felt all alone and lost everything I had in me. My dreams, wishes, possessions, and love. It was the day when I questioned God’s existence. I felt so locked up; I stopped feeling - tears, pain and peace. This agony made my body numb. I feared ache and silence. Life couldn’t get any more unfair.
I believed that I could not have desired for anything better because you remained the best thing in my life. My hands trembled with the thought that I had you no more. I fell on my knees, begging god to send you back, send you back to me. I did not wish for a hug, I did not want to feel better, all I wished for was a call from you. But wishes never come true, do they. “WHY?” I asked myself. My anatomy was seized by my mental state and I would never be able to answer myself.
Feeling lifeless, I sat down with my broken heart and you in mind. I recalled the last hug, the last smile and the last goodbye you bid. Years of my life spent with you felt like just one night’s dream and the fact that you were no more was the worst nightmare. I pleaded you to come back, but only if you could…
All that remained with me was just a few memories, smiles and advices that were stowed in my brain and sealed forever. I closed my heavy eyes and saw you smiling. That beautiful smile made me believe that I had you with me forever and it gave me the strength and courage to wake up from the nightmare. People could only console and comfort me but no one could ever fill the void the nightmare left behind. Something inside me broke more and more for each step they took to take you away. It broke and shattered so much that I couldn’t figure out which piece matched each place. Helplessly, I sat with no strength and regrets knowing that it was my last glimpse of you that soon became a memory.
Days, weeks and months passed and I still waited thinking that you would come back from the same door they took you away. I went back to the places you used to sit and heard you laugh and saw you smile. I stayed up nights in the hope and fear that I’ll see you again, but now I have come to believe that you must be in a better place.
LOVE YOU.
