Our new found friendship didn't come without problems, of course. He had a girlfriend and I had just gotten out of a terrible relationship. People say that opposites attract, in their case, there was friction. They were complete opposites. He was go-with-the-flow, open-minded, laid back, live-in-the-moment type. While she was organized, close-minded, bossy, and a bit of a stick in the mud. She was in two of my classes. I wanted to get to know her more. In class, she was funny, quiet, but funny. She had a reputation for keeping her boyfriend on a tight leash. Good thing he and I were just friends. Was it wrong that I wanted to be more than friends with him? In that certain situation, hell yeah. It didn't take long before she and I were good friends. I had also become part of their group of friends. I didn't want anyone to think that I was only friends with everyone to get closer to him, that wasn't it at all. Don't get me wrong, I did enjoy when I got to be around him. I was in too deep. My worst fear used to be failing in life, but now it was losing my friends. I was stuck, I didn't know what to do. I'd turn to my instincts, but all I could ever think about was him. I asked my best friends what I should do. One friend pointed out that he may feel the same way about me, but I'd never know if I didn't tell him. I knew that if I told my secret, my fear would become a reality. I was stuck again, I was at war with myself. To tell or not to tell? I started to think of days when and if I could tell him. Before Christmas break? No, the rest of the year could be ruined. Maybe Valentine's Day? No, that's lame. Before prom? Not that either, he was going with his girlfriend. What about the last day of school? No, we're probably going to hang out over the summer. I was still stuck, it seemed so hopeless.
