Lauryn's P.O.V.
I laid in my bed thinking what the hell did I do wrong. What caused him to cheat on me. First Josh then Louis. I seriously thought we would be together forever, but they are all fucking lies! No one will ever love me. ever. I went into my bathroom, locked the doors and grabbed my razor. I haven't been cutting for 8 years. That was when my father left my mom and I for some slut. He was also a drug addict and an alcoholic. When I was 10 now I am 18 he would come home drunk or high or both and abuse me. One time he smashed a beer bottle on my head. That is in the past. That bastard. Now I'm in the bathroom I dug into my skin with the razor and cut the words"I don't know how to be loved." Then I cut my thigh with the words" I will never be loved." The cherry red blood oozed out of my skin and on my shirt. Sure it hurt like hell but it made my pain go away.
I laid in my bed with no food or water for two days only cutting more words into my skin. Then I showered put a long sleeves shirt on with pants and boots and went to school.
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I spend her love until she's broke inside(my love)
FanficFollow Lauryn in a journey of her love or her poison. 18 year old lauryn dates 19year old Louis Tomlinson, But later does she know that he was using her. This is also a Hayes Grier fan fic. (COMPLETED)
