nash
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'nash open the door whats wrong?' you pound on the door
then you hear nash wince in pain
'nash! whats wrong are you okay?!'
no answer but another wince
'NASH WHATS GOING ON?!' you practically scream
he still doesn't answer so you grab a candle holder from the table and start hitting the door knob until it falls off
you kick open the door and see nash sat on the floor holding his wrists with blood dripping onto his hands, theres a gun resting in front of him and his head is resting on his knees
'nash...wha-what are you doing? whats going onnn?' you stutter as you slowly walk towards him
he lifts his head up and looks at you
his perfect eyes are red and puffy from crying
his face is pale and theres no expression on his face
you take his arms in your hands and look at the slits
how can be do this?
hes perfect, every inch of him
how could he want to harm something so wonderful?
you can feel your cheeks get warm as your vision becomes blury from tears
you try not to cry but its hard not to, tears start streaming down your face as nash begins to talk
'I cant take this anymore (Y/N), I try to make people smile and all they do is hate me, what have I done wrong?!?!?' he yells
'nash its going to be okay just pu-put down the gun..'
'I just want happiness (Y/N) you and my family are all I have left I just cant take it anymore I love you chloe and I always will and im sorr-' you cut him of by lightly kissing him
'this isn't the end, I promise, youll make I through this, I did and I stayed strong, please stop this! for me?' you start to cry as nash looks to the floor
'nash.. it will be okay in the end, if its not okay, its not the end'
he kisses you passionately and picks up the gun
he pulls the trigger without thinking...your body froze as you drop to the floor
w-w-what just h-h-h-happened?
I-I-I-I cant even, why
thoughts start swarming your head as you feel a note beside you...
you slowly open it with your hands shaking...
'im sorry (Y/N) but this world is just not my place
ive tried for so long to fix this and fit in
ive come to realise this worlds full of sin
theres nothing for me here im just a waste of space
ive got no reason to stay here with this awful race
its a disgrace I was misplaced
born in the wrong time and in the wrong place
its okay though cause youll see me soon youll know when your time has come just look at the moon
as it shines bright throughout the night
and remember everyones facing their own fight
but I cant deal with the pain im not a fighter
youll make it through the night just hug your pillow tighter
so let the world know that I died in vain
because the world around me is the one to blame
and I know in a year youll forget im gone
cause im not really something to be dwelled on
that's what they used to tell me
all those kids in school
so now im going by the law majority rules
my presence on this earth is not needed any longer
and if anything I hope this makes you stronger
your the best friend that I ever had
such a shame I had to make you so very sad
just remember that you ment everything to me
and to my heart your the only one that held the key
now im its time to go im running out of space to right
and yes I lost my fight but please just hold on tight
im watching over you from the clouds above
and sending down the purest and whitest dove
to watch over you and be my helpful eye
so this is it world....
"goodbye"...'
