Forever and Always (TNHS continue) UNFINISHED

14: What now?

*One month later.*

"It's been a month." Niall said as he was trying to talk to me. "I know." I said. "Babe, she's gone." Niall said as he try to take away the baby girl's clothes. "No! What are you doing?!" I said as I took the clothes back. Niall looked at me, sighed and left.

*throwback to a month ago.*

"PUSH!!!! PUSH KAYLA PUSH!!!" Niall was yelling at me to push the baby. "AHHHHHHHH!" I yelled as I'm pushing so freaking hard. Like you know when you are taking a shit and it just won't come out and you're hella pushing? No? Okay, well that's how it feels like.

"I see the head! Push one more time for me please!" Mr. Tah says. So I do.

"Why isn't there no crying?" I said as I start to get worried. "Why is there no crying!?!!?" Niall says loudly as he walks over to Mr. Tah. "Give me a second." He says as he turns and starts to clean the baby up.

Niall comes towards me, I'm already crying. Why isn't my baby crying? "It's okay baby. I'm sure." Niall says as he is assuring me.

"I am so deeply sorry." Mr. Tah says as he is holding Natalie. "No. No. No. no. No no no no no." I start to say refusing to believe it. "No, no!" I said as I'm bawling my eyes out. "Would you like to hold her?" He says. Niall takes her and he starts to cry.

"My baby. My little baby girl." He said as he is giving her to me.

"Oh. Oh oh my baby." I said as I'm crying. "She looks so peaceful." I said as tears are falling down my eyes. "Natalie Horan. My sweet girl." I say as Niall and I are crying so hard. "Natalie Horan." Niall says.

"Why did that happen?" I said calmly, kind of, not really. They just took her away from me. We were not in a room. Our friends didn't even know what had happened yet.

"It was a still birth." Mr. Tah said. "But you said the baby was perfect? That we were perfect. That she was perfect!" I said as tears start falling down. "I'm so sorry, Kayla. Natalie was perfect. It just happened." Mr. Tah said.

*nialls pov.*

I walked to the waiting room, as my friends were waiting for good news. "Niall?" Selena says as she's the first one that looks at me. "It- it- it was a stillbirth." I start to cry as they start running and hugging me. We were all crying.

My first baby died. My little baby girl who didn't even get to have her first breath here on earth. My baby girl.

*back to present.*

*Kayla's POV*

I've been sitting in Natalie's room for the past month. Crying and sleeping on the floor next to the crib. Niall has been patient with me.

I'm depressed. Selena and Kayla come and try to talk to me, but it doesn't work. I try to have the courage to get up and move on in life, but I can't. My baby died while I was giving birth. I didn't plan for this.

"Honey, you have to eat something." Niall says. "I'm not hungry." I say as I'm just in my own place. "For Gods sake, Kayla!" Niall looks at me. "Get up! Come eat with your fiancé who misses you!" Niall said. "How am I suppose to do that! We're supposed to be eating with Natalie!" I said. "SHES GONE KAYLA." Niall says. "How can you say that? Don't you think I know that!? I know that she's gone! How are you up and living with out her? KNOWING THAT SHES GONE?!?!?" I yell.

"Don't you think it hurts me too?? Don't you think I wish I would be the one up at 3 in the morning to hold her while you are sleeping? You think I'm happy that Natalie isn't here? SHE WAS MY BABY TOO. My baby too! Kayla, I need us to be happy. We need to move on. She's gone, she's in a better place. She's happy." Niall says. I start to cry. "How could this happen to us?" I cry as Niall sits with me. "I miss her." I whispered cry. "I miss her too."

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*4 months later.*

"I'm so glad you're up and doing better." Selena said as she smiles. "Me too." I smile. "Even though it still hurts, but I'm trying. We both are." I said speaking for Niall. "I know, you guys deserve happiness." Kayla said as she was holding her baby.

"Can I hold him?" I asked. Katy gave me a small smile and gave him to me. "Oh, he's precious." I smiled. A tear rolling down my cheek. "I'm sorry." I said as I was laughing/crying. "It's okay." Katy said as she chuckles nervously. "It's just, Natalie would've been just like him. You guys would've been holding her." I say. "Our kids would've been best friends." I cried a little. I gave him back to Katy. "Oh. I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to make you guys cry." I said as I looked at them. "How could we not? She was our niece. We never got to hold her." Selena said as she wiped away a tear.

*Niall's POV.*

"We're better, yeah. I mean it gets hard sometimes. She's pushing through." I said as I was outside with Harry and Louis. Liam was on vacation with Cheryl. Zayn came by and hugged me. "How are you doing?" Harry asks.

"Me? I'm doing okay. I'm trying. Really hard." I said. "Like I said, it gets hard sometimes, but we're okay. We have each other, besides, we can make another one. Or we can adopt." I said as I smiled. "You guys want to adopt or try again?" Louis said. "Well we really haven't done trying again." I said as I look at Kayla while she's inside. We make eye contact and smile. "You know what's crazy?" I  said. "I'm still in love with her." I said as I looked at Harry and Lou. "Well of course you do." Louis said. "No, like I'm in love with her. I'm so in love with her it's crazy. Honestly, I'm heart broken without Natalie, but whenever Kayla cries or when she was in that dark place, I never wanted to leave her alone. Never. I always want to be with her. She's the reason why I'm okay. But when she's broken, I'm broken. When she's happy, I'm happy. I'm so in love with her." Niall said. "She makes me cry." Niall laughs as he wipes a little small tear away. "We know what you mean, Nialler." Harry said.