cross roads, cross fingers (completed)

give me a break - Amren

Twinkle twinkle little star
How I wonder how you are
Holding a sparkle of arid light
Hope so lost, too feeble to fight
Twinkle twinkle little star
Take me back, get me so far

To other lands she longs to escape
Away from the sadness, regret and rage
To see dragons, pilots and kings
To see magicians, all fabulous things

When she closes the book
Her heart beats flat line
The reality isn't so fun
But she's trying to be just fine

You might ignore her presence
But when you don't you'll see how bright she shines
She's a supernova who'd explode in seconds
Lighting up the space, in the most beautiful designs

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The screaming was too much to bear, I lock myself in my room, hands pressed to my ears trying to eliminate the sound but it's not effective. It's piercing through the four walls of my room, and through me too. It's suffocating me, yet again, and I can't do anything but cry. I shut my eyes and squint my face so hard that I could feel hot blood rising up in it.

My body quivers as the sound of glass smashing against hard surface echoes it's way to my room, and I start to sob, as quietly as I could. I am so sick of this, pain shoots up in my body as I bring my legs to my chest burying my face in until there wasn't any air to suck anymore.

And then I snap. Not thinking twice I get up, snatch my bag and reach my door knob, I make my way downstairs where the voices could smash glass. One look at my parents sideways and I really wanna throw up my guts.
They catch me staring, and my mom approaches me, face full of bitter, dry tears, but I don't give her the chance to reach me, I quickly open the door and head out.

I don't turn back, I run. Ignoring her bitter voice calling my name, "Amren" she screams again and again. But I have to get away from her, I need serenity, I need peace, and I need to keep running.