Blue, black and purple I see
dark colors follow me home
It's impossible not to be frightened
inhale and exhale, I can't stay calm.
One stumble it took from me
for them to catch up
Kick scream and punch
nothing adds up
Why am I the victim?
Out of all the girls alive
I got chosen to be the one to never survive
Now I hear them everywhere
My pillow repeats the story,
Every time I lay my head
everyone's starting to worry
What am I to do? Is it okay to tell?
They'll say I was the one to bring on this hell.
I tried to fix myself
again and again I cued on the music
Moves my body created and it was a little therapeutic
I turned it on very high
it might have reached the clouds above,
At peace for a while I felt
but not a little ounce of love.
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The water was so hot, steaming. I sit in the bathtub hugging my legs to my chest, I'm still shivering, isn't it hot enough? I know that I'm not shivering from cold, let's just pretend that I am. Steam fills the bathroom and I can't see anything, just like that night- no, I can't and will not think about it, stop it Karma. My heart is beating fast, just as fast as – goodness gracious. No matter what I do, I can't stop thinking about it, and I'm not okay, no matter how much I try to deny it. I raise my head giving the hot water access to splash all over my body, removing all the invisible handprints they left to haunt me. A quiet sob breaks out and I hug my legs even tighter to my chest. Why did it have to be me?
"Karma! I need the bathroom, hurry up!" I hear my little sister shout, I sigh, finally turning off the water and stepping out.
"finally, took you long enough" Sally snaps at me when I'm out. wrapped in a towel, I ignore her and make my way to my room, I close the door and lean back against it.
"oh my god Karma! I can't see anything! Ugh!" her annoying voice fills the space again, I sigh and head to my closet, I choose black leggings and an oversized t-shirt, causal and comfy, I brush my hair slightly then head to the kitchen. Mom and dad were already there, cooking a delicious family meal together, and the sight of them together with Lily my baby sister warmed up my heart.
"oh hey darling" dad welcomes me when I enter.
"Karma honey, do you mind making a quick run to the supermarket down the street, I'm in the need of some things" mom asks while chopping up some vegetables.
I look outside the window to make sure that the sun is still up, it is, but barely, if I'm quick enough I can go and come back before it gets dark.
"of course, what do you want" I ask her and head to the usual drawer to get money.
"ketchup, pickles and coke, be as quick as possible please!" mom says and I sigh.
I make my way to the door, what if it gets dark and I'm still not back? I run off to the street, head down but aware of every movement around me, the street is kind of deserted except for a few cars passing by. I reach the supermarket out of breath and unfortunately it was as crowded as ever, I curse my luck but quickly move to gather what I need. They were easy to find because I'm familiar with the place, and when I finally go to check out I try to skip in line but I only get death glares and rude remarks in return. Frustrated, I make my way last in line, and after what feels like 15 minutes I pay for my stuff and head for the door.
Damn it, I think to myself, it's already dark, I take a deep breath and take off. On my way I move fast, always looking around just to be sure that I'm alone, and safe.
"hey! You wait up" I hear a man shout from behind me, my heart skips a beat as I look back to see a man running towards me, I break into a run, not caring where I'm heading I just run trying to get as away from him as possible, I see a narrow passageway around the corner of the street and I don't hesitate to enter. I keep running down the passageway where it's dark and smells like old meat. I turn another corner and at last lean back against the wall, I try to catch my breath not aware of anything around me but my heavy breathing slowly calming down.
"who's here?" a freaked out voice breaks out of the darkness. I quickly turn to the source, screaming. I turn my back to the figure that was getting closer to me, and I put my hands over my face, I want to run but my mind cannot think straight at the moment.
"hey hey it's okay!" the figure screams, and I notice that it's a girl's voice, I shut up instantly, but turn around very carefully to see that the girl had her phone's flashlight on.
A very short but beautiful girl stands in front of me, red hair that matches her round face, and a nose piercing that gleams on her small cute nose.
"I'm sorry if I scared you that was not my intention, I'm Amren, who are you?"
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cross roads, cross fingers (completed)
Teen FictionA short story about feeling so small and suffocated in such a big overwhelming world, about how each and every single soul is going through some obstacles in life and probably thinks they are the only ones. We have 3 girls: Amren, a timid basic gir...
