Let's Call it Hope [EN]

Chapter 2

~ Marcus Kane ~

I wander in the corridors, when suddenly a shout resonates. A heart-rending howl, desperate. I run to the sound, I already know from where it comes. The door is closed, locked. I knock, no answer. I stick my ear to the wall, and hear Abby's weeping. I knock again, in vain.

- Abby! What's happening. Answer, please... Open this door! I beg you!

- Go away Marcus! I don't want to see you! It's all your fault.

I let myself fall, back against the wall, listening her tortured groans on the other side. Some curious get close to me, wondering what's happening here. I expel them away with no explanation. Do I have one? Why Abby is screaming? For Clarke? If only I could know...

- Abby, let me enter, please...

- No way!

I know she needs help, and I would want to be there for her, to save her, I'd want to get the stars and offer her, I'd want to reach the sun and bring its light back... Where's my Abby? Where're her smiles? Where's her laugh?

All of a sudden, I can't hear anything. Silence reigns in the corridors, and in her room.

- Abby?

No answer. I knock on her door, still nothing. What's happening? I feel a long shiver running through my body. I knock as strong as possible, I try to open it, in vain. That's when Octavia pushes me away, and takes her magnetic card. She passes it in front of the handle, and I can hear the door opening. I pull it, and enter in. Abby's laying on the ground, a white liquid flows out her mouth. Frightened, I shake her, I take her head in my hands, I shout her name. I can't lose her, not now. Not ever.

Octavia catches my shoulder, and pull me away. Two men lay down her body on a stretcher, and take her away. I grab her hand, and hold it up to the MedBay.

- What's happening to her?

The two men don't answer. They just say she needs to rest.

- Same as Raven, says Octavia in my back, coldly. We burned out her chip. She has lesions now. Raven told us the protocol to follow to get rid of it. But I can order it without her agreement. She'll wake up, don't worry. Raven explained me everything before she went to space.

I would want Octavia to order it, but I can not insist. She asks Abby's consent, or the one of a family member. I'm none of them. I'm nothing. The room is now empty. I don't drop her hand, and I'll stay here all the night if I have to.

I feel something in my hair. I hardly open my eyes, dazzled by the light. My head's on Abby's belly. She's caressing my head, slowly.

- Marcus, I'm so sorry, she murmurs.

I cross her gaze. Her beautiful gaze, sadly full of pain.

- You don't have to be... I'm here Abby, it's gonna be okay.

- They contacted us... I talked to Raven. Clarke... Clarke is not with them. She stayed on Earth... Marcus... Outside... She saved them... And now... She's not here any more... There are no other bunker outside... She... Raven said that Nightblood might have worked. But... Marcus, it's impossible!

She's weeping all the tears of her body, and I only can hold her hand.

- I've lost my baby... Marcus I've lost her! I've lost her! I saw it in my vision! And I didn't protect her... My sweet baby... My little Clarke... How...