Never Be Enough(j.s.&j.b.)

Missing him....

When you love somebody you can't just stop thinking about them, it's like telling someone not to breathe. You need to breathe to live. You NEED that person to live. You can't stop missing them when they're gone. You can't stop thinking about them when they leave. You can't just 'move on'.You loved them, you always have and always will. Even when they don't love you back anymore. But at the same time, it kills you to see that person with somebody else.When that person said 'i love you' so many times, they were all just lies.You're never just gonna stop crying about them, because you loved them, and just keep the memories.That's what matters.

--------Y/N'S POV

We woke up the next day, the day after filming the video.I was still in Blake's arms, and my pillow was still damp from where my eyes were.I tried to get up, and Blake grunted, and then pulled me back.'Blakey let me gooo' i said.He didn't move, or say anything,just stayed there. I gave him a hug back, and then he let me go. I got out of the bed, and then woke up Mark, Owen, Cam ,Matt, Shawn, Ariel, and lastly Blake. We all got dressed, and then went to iHop for breakfast. We had another extremely deep conversation:

Shawn: should i order a bluberry muffin or a banana muffin guys?

y/n: Bluberry muffins are good

Cam: banana muffins are better!

Owen: Blueberry!

Matt: banana!

Mark: Blueberry!

Ariel: banana!

Blake: Blueberry!

Shawn: ok i guess i'll get both

then he laughed me and Cam were still both glaring at each other like we were gonna kill each other.

Blake: Alright guys! What're we finna do today?

Cam: We have another show today, then we're driving over to Houston

Matt: Oh great! Another 2 days on a bus

Shawn: y/n what are you gonna do for rooming on the bus?

y/n: Oh shit! You're right who am i gonna room with?

Blake: you can stay with me and Owen

y/n: only if Mark can come too

Blake: that's fine, we have 4 beds

Cam: Brando and Hunter have their own rooms, so if you want me to make them share a room                so you can have your own room...

y/n: I'm not leaving Mark with the ratchets

Matt: that's what we're calling them now?

y/n: yes I'd rather not say the names

Matt: ok then getting off that subject, what ARE we gonna do today?

Shawn: I heard that there's a mall around here somewhere

Owen: It's right across the street Mendes

Shawn: oh.....

So, we ate breakfast, and then went to the mall that was across the street. We went to Nike and Adidas so we could get me some more joggers, and then Converse, so i could get the leggings that i had. and then, Zumiez i got like 15 different hoodies from there. We met LOTS of fans, and everyone else ate lunch. I went to go find something else to do. Then,i saw Jacob, that same Jacob i saw after the first show.No, worse. He was still sobbing. I dropped everything. I ran over and hugged him. I felt shivers down my spine. He hugged back automatically.'y/n' he whispered,'yes jacob' i said softly. 'I'm sorry, im not sure what got into me' he said just above a whisper,'please just tell me you'll never do that again baby boy' i said. He pulled away from the hug kissed my forehead and said,'never' His hand was in mine, our fingers intertwined. We walked back to everybody else. Blake looked like he was trying his absolute hardest not to kill Jacob right then. 'its ok i promise' i whispered in his ear. He calmed down a bit. Me and Jacob went to meet a few more fans. Most of them were really nice. Some were a bit crazy though. They wanted Jacob to kiss their cheeks and that kind of stuff.'No, i save my love for my princess' he said every time.When we were done we went a couple of other places,'y/n, Joey hasn't eaten or come out of the bathroom since what happened, he says he's only gonna talk to you' Jacob said.'ok then we need to go back there right away!' i said, and then started running. I got there WAY before Jacob did, and knocked on the hotel room door,'y/n?' Joey asked from inside the bathroom,'Joseph Birlem come answer this door right now or i will hurt the muffins' Shawn poked his head out of hid door and said,'NOOOOO!!!!NOT THE MUFFINS Y/N!!!!!!' and then went back inside. Joey opened the door and out or reaction i kissed him, he looked like he needed it. His wrists were scarred now too, and he also was wearing joggers. 'Jojo i dont care what the situation is between us, if you ever want to do this so yourself again you come and get me!' i said.'yes princess' he said and then we sat on the bed. After his explanation, Jacob walked in the room.'hey princess, hey Jo' he said, and then came over and sat next to me and kissed my temple. 'y/n can you please just start staying in here again? Me and Jacob haven't slept without you' Joey asked,'of course muffin' i said. It's around 5:00 now, so i think we should go to bed, being as how none of us have really slept at all and there's a show at 8:00. I laid down in the middle of the bed, ans both of them were on either side of me. I held Jacobs hand, and Joey was hugging me. I woke up at 6:30, and took a shower. I put on my black and white converse leggings, black and white old skool Vans, and a crop top Thrasher hoodie. I was done by 7:00 so i woke up the boys. They got ready, and then we ll went down to the lobby, where we are supposed to be by 7:30, it was 7:25, and most of us were there. I sat next to Blake, and laid my head on his shoulder. He hugged me, and then we just went on our phones until it was time to go to the venue.We got into the bus, and then we went for a quick sound check. Then we started the show. We had a Q&A at some point. Most fans asked what was going on in those pictures of me and Blake. 'um...guys me and y/n have a pretty big announcement to make' Blake said,'Omg! you and y/n are dating?!' one fan said.'Um actually guys we're siblings' and with that the show ended. The boys went to the meet and greet and i assumed my usual postition after the show. In the middle of the stage. Jacob came and sat next to me. 'Wassup' I said,'Well, uh actually, i was wondering if you..uh..if you would be my girlfriend' he asked, and then his cheeks turned a darker shade of red, and so did mine. 'of course Sartorius' i  said, and then he handed me a rose. 'my love for you ends when this rose dies' i felt it,it was fake, it would never die. 'i love you Jacob' i said,'y/n i love you forever and always' he said, and then something happened. I saw someone behind Jacob, it was Blake. 'Blake! Stop! If you hurt him I'm never talking to you again!' i said, and with that, he walked away with a defeated look on his face. 'Y/N? I HEARD YOU YELLING! ARE YOU OK?' Joey asked as sprinted to the stage.'Joey I'm fine' i said,'Jacob's got me' i said. I suddenly lost all feelings for Joseph Matthew Birlem. Joey walked out. he muttered,'damn it,im too late,jacob already stole her back' and i was like bro even if you did ask me out, i would've said no. Jacob picked me up, and i got a free Jacob-back ride. Those are the best. He took me over to his part of the meet and greet. We met a bunch of fans before we got food, and the whole thing was over. I was walking down the sidewalk to the tour bus, then i felt Blake-arms around me. 'Hey Blakey' i said,'Hey y/n' he said. We walked the rest of the way to the bus together, just talking. When i got there, Jacob opened the door for us,'mah princess,and her wonderful plus one'he said in a british accent,'mah man, and his horrible british accent' i said mocking his tone of voice. We both laughed, and then he led me to our room. Mark was helping arrange the bluetooth speakers.We were now listening to 'Never Be Alone' by Shawn. 'Alright y'all i'm tired, so i'm finna go to bed.Remember that you're only 14 please.' Mark said and walked over to his room closing our door behind him. I got on the bed, and Jacob decided to control the speaker. Ok, let me just say, I've seen Jacob teenage boy-ish before, but never this bad. I decided that the best thing to do was to sleep through this, because usually it would be over in the morning. Of course he had to make the music louder though, so i decided to go to Joey's room for the night. Right now its like 11:00 at night, so everyone was still awake. Out in the living room, 'History ~One Direction' was playing. Shawn was sitting on the couch singing to it under his breath. 'Shawn?' i asked,he jumped a little because he was so focused on his phone he didn't know i was there.'Oh, it's just you y/n. What?' he asked, and then smiled.'Where's Joey or Blake or Owen?' i asked,'Oh, I'm not sure where Joey is, Blake and Owen are in the kitchen eating' he said,'ok thanks Shawn Bear' i say and then walked into the kitchen. 'Can one of you go fix Jacob please?' i asked everyone who was sitting in the kitchen. Which included: Cam, Matt, Nash, Owen, Blake, Hunter, Brandon, and Zach. 'What happened?' Cam said,'he's being a 14-year old' i said,'ahh I've delt with this one before' Hunter said, and then him and Brandon walked out to go 'fix' Jacob. 'Blake, I'm staying in your room tonight' i said,'whatever, it's just me and Zach anyways.....holdup!Where did you think you were gonna sleep?' Blake said/asked,'With Jacob, like I've been doing for the past 11 years' i said in a duh tone.'Uhhhhh....no. You are WAY too young to be a mother' Blake said,'Oh My Lord! You guys are all so dirty minded!' i said, and walked away to get my phone and pajamas. I grabbed my Nike pros, and a hoodie. I got changed, and then went to Blake's room. I plugged my phone in, and then watched TV. I was watching SpongeBob when Zach rudely interrupted by running into the room,and started doing the chicken dance. 'Zach, get your crusty ass away from the TV' i said. He walked away and did the pouty lip. At 12:30 Brando walked into the room and said,'Jacob's all fixed up y/n' then 5 minutes later, Blake walked in. I was falling asleep. I stole his Jake Paul blanket. He got into bed, and then gave me a kiss on the forehead,'love you y/n' he said, and then we fell asleep. It wasn't like falling asleep in Jacob's arms, but it was good enough. After Blake and Zach fell asleep, i heard the door open. Jacob walked in, i pretended to be asleep, he walked over, kissed me on the lips, causing me to smile, and then said,'i love you, and know that you're awake y/n' I opened my eyes, and then got out of bed. I went with Jacob back to his room. I got back in bed, and then felt Jacob's arms around my waist. I turned around to face him. Our eyes kept moving from each other's eyes, and then to our lips, he leaned in, and i kissed him. The best feeling in the world, we didn't let go either. Our lips were moving in sync until we fell asleep. I was playing with his hair.