ghost // jeon jeongguk ff

five

"its true," she said sadly and looked at me. "my mom did died from breast cancer."

"how about your stepdad?" i asked as i looked at her hand that's still intertwined with mine.

"my stepdad was the one who killed me," her grip on my hand tightened. "he smacked with a vase and while i was unconscious, he dropped me to the lake. when i woke up, i was already drowning and that's when you saw me."

guiltiness build up inside me. i started picturing what happened a year ago when she was drowning. i looked at her straight in the eye and i found myself lost in her eyes. "i'm sorry i didn't help you, i was scared and didn't know what to do." i know apologizing doesn't fix all the problems i  the world, but its all i could do now. she's already dead and thinking about it makes me feel more guilty.

"don't be," she smiled apologetically. "i'm kind of thankful you didn't save me. i wanted to die anyway."

"you're okay," i said and gave her a smile. she lifted her face up and looked at me.

"why aren't you removing your hands from mine?" she asked and her tears were no longer visible.

"i like to keep it warm," i said and smiled widely. i intertwined my other hand with her other hand. i saw her smile and it made me feel proud of myself. "is it still cold?"

she shook her head. "thank you jungkook."