Summer Camp

Part 3- Sharing Whats Been Considered

Lindsey's Point of View-
I wake up to my friends by my side. I get a weird feeling as I sit up, I get I little dizzy, and look down at my arms... My wrists are covered with splotchy red bandages. "What happened?" "You don't remember?" Kristin asks. "Remember what?" "You crawled out of bed last night and pulled some thing out of the desk and started fiddling with your wrists... We led you back to bed and check and wrapped your wrists after you got settled." Said Daniella. "What time is it? We should be getting ready and stop worrying about a little blood loss. We are going to be late to breakfast."
Timeskip-
Aidans Point of View-
Another small concert and tears rolling down Lindseys pained face, and stripey socks with the feet cut off, on her forearms. I can't bring myself to hug her... She is like me when my parents divorced a few years ago. I mean life sucks for everyone, but for some, it comes and bites you in the neck on a regular basis, giving you a bunch of crap to deal with. I am going to go for a walk with her later, figure out whats happening. Maybe I could cheer her up, I hope.
Lindsey's Point of View-
I could barely breath during the movie we watched, it put a lot of pain in my heart. Stupid suicidal thoughts, they take over my life... I can't bear the pain, and I feel so freaking alone right now. My cuts itch really bad, but I was told not to itch them because I could pick the scabs and have even worse scars. Why does it always happen to me? I know everyone has crap, but it is getting worse for me, and I don't have a way to get over it.
Brief timeskip-
Lindsey's Point of View-
After the lesson, the guys left to get ice cream, while the girls played a game. I did not have fun running through bubbles to pick up boards and running away from the sweaty animals, it was weird, and not the good kind. I was excited to finish playing, and go get ice cream, talk to my friends Kristin, Daniella, Mckenna, and Annabelle, while the guys run away from the sweaty animals. I just wish I could talk to Aidan in between times.
McKenna's Point of View-
Something is wrong with Lindsey, I just don't know what. I will have to talk about it with her on our walk. Is she sick? She hasn't fallen like I have, so I know she didn't break anything. Did something happen to Hair Jordan? Hmm... "Hey Linds, is there something wrong? I may have only known you a few days, but you're not acting normal." "Huh? Nothings wrong, just a little tired, and kinda dizzy. It doesn't help that I cried last night." "Oh my gosh! What happened?" "I guess the song lyrics got to me, and my conciderations caught up to me." "What did you consider in the past that made you cry?" Annabelle asked. "Sui...cide..." Lindsey chokes out the word through tears, I go to hug her, and I realize that she calms down in my embrace, it makes the four of us other girls happy she talked about it.
Lindsey's Point of View-
Mckenna ask whats wrong so I spill that I considered suicide. We got back to the dorms, and Jaydon noticed that I had been crying, so he told Bryan about it. When Bryan asked what was wrong, I couldn't hold in my tears anymore, and I told him about how I considered suicide. "Have you told your parents?" "No, please don't tell them. I would only put more stress on them." "This is serious Linds. Wether you like it or not, your mother is getting a call. No if, ands, or buts about it." This is when I started crying harder than when we had the Working Kingdom session earlier. Why does life have to be so cruel to me? I wish people would just forget about me sometimes, then it wouldn't hurt them so much when they find my scars...
Aidan's Point of View-
It was so hard to walk away from Linds when she started crying on Bryans shoulder. I wanted to hug her so bad, but I couldn't do it, sadness seems to be contagious, and i would have to talk about my parents. The world isn't fair to me, it pulls me into the depths of the ocean to drown in sorrow...
Time skip-
Lindsey's Point of View-
We walk into session and I start crying again. I got hugs from Carrey, Kristin, Daniella, Mckenna, and Annabelle. I couldn't stop crying when Taylor came on stage and talked about what we learned in Working Kingdom earlier. After he did a little reading, we started singing songs, that normally wouldn't do anything to me, but they made me cry harder. Then I felt a sudden warmth coming from my left. Aidan put his arm around my shoulder and pulled me closer to him. I slowed my crying and snuggled even closer. I don't know why I calmed down, but I felt safe in his arms, like nothing in my mind would hurt me. Thank you Aidan.
Aidans Point of View-
I couldn't take it anymore. I'm sick of seeing her hurt so much. I wrap my arm around her shoulders, it always helped me when I cried about my parents, warmth always makes me feel better. I could feel her get closer, and I look down at her and her tears slowed. Session ended and we were told to walk around the lake and stop at different stations. We walk out of the auditorium, and I hold Linds until the first station. She had calmed down enough that I thought she was okay. When we got to the third station she began to cry again, Bryan hugged her and she calmed down before I could get to her. I'm just glad that I could calm her down before something happened. For the group prayer circle, she volunteered to pray, and was trying so hard not to cry.
Bryans Point of View-
I look over down the row to check on Lindsey, and I see Aidan holding her, and she wasn't crying. I hope that nothing happens to her, or Aidan. I know their stories, and they both are broken.
Timeskip-
Jaydens Point of View-
Aidan, Lindsey, Daniella, and I went for a walk around the lake, and I took some pictures of my friends and the moon. Lindsey and Daniella walk a head and Aidan started talking "Ya know, I really feel bad for Lindsey. I understand how life can be-" He suddenly stoped walking and talking when he saw the little statue that looked like it walked away from Taco Bell. "Oh my gosh! Its Taco Bell!" We all started laughing, and we headed back to the dorms while screaming names into the echo, while Aidan creeped Linds and Daniella out by saying "I see you when you're sleeping." I hope he tells her soon, Lindsey looks happier when shes around Aidan... God, please don't let anything happen to my friends...