The Loud House: Secrets

Lucy: Depression

Monday Morning

Depression.

That is all Lucy can think about. Is she depressed? She can't tell really. People say she's emotionless but she doesn't believe that. But... then she does.. was she actually emotionless? Or she just has a hard time expressing her feelings to other people? She's just...plain. She's just a waste of space and time. She doesn't know why she's here. Lucy doesn't deserve to be breathing, sitting down in her room thinking about something very important. That important thing is suicide.

Lucy has been thinking about this for quite some time and is basically ready to make the final decision. Well, there's tons of reasons why she doesn't want to be here. Her family never notices her, and not only because of depression, it's also because of curiosity. She always wanted to know what would happen if you just flat out die. Do you just blackout for the rest of your life? Or take a trip to Hell/Heaven? Well, she's just mostly depressed. But Lucy doesn't know when she can take her life away. Lucy can try it at midnight. But then.. Lucy doesn't want to die.

Lucy thought her family might care. Family do love each other..right? Do they care?... Lucy loves all of her siblings dearly but do they love her back? Or they just believe Lucy doesn't exist at all? "Sigh" Lucy said as she opened her bedroom door. All these questions ran through Lucy's head. She was going downstairs for breakfast and all these questions and thoughts were running through her head. Sigh. Maybe she-

"So Leni, you had a good sleep?" Lincoln said.

"Yes! I had a dream where I was blind!" Leni said with a smile.

"Uhm...interesting. Luan how about you?"

"Fine..." she said in a soft voice, surprisingly, Luan didn't care to mention a pun or a joke. Maybe she was just tired. Lincoln then asked the rest of his sisters, they responded all with a "Yes."

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Monday After-School

Lucy was in her room, thinking on how she should just kill herself. She planned on doing it on a Sunday,midnight,and doing it in her room, why? You ask?, she just wanted to see if her family give a shit or not.Hell, she bets they won't even hear a bullet. But how?

Lucy just wanted a quick way to die. She just wanted to shoot herself in the chest, but where is she gonna get a gun?

"Oh kids!" Rita called for her 11 children, "You'll be visiting Pop-pop for the weekend, and yes, the entire weekend. Your father and I will be visiting somewhere......personal. You kids behave. Do you hear me?"

"Yes mom, we all understand." 9 kids responded, Lily smiled,Lucy didn't answer because she was busy.....thinking....

"I just want to give you a headstart." Rita said, before going outside to do get groceries with Lori. "Bye, Kids!" as Rita shut the door, the other kids waved goodbye and returned back to their natural routine.

Lucy went back to her habitat (which is her room), and realized that Pop-pop has loads of shotguns for hunting season in his old cabin. He still does visit there only in hunting season, which is happening very soon-she thinks.

Maybe everything is going as planned.